Went to pyramid and celebrate sien wei's birthday from morning till around 5.30pm I guess. Today is a day I really about outing so far.

First thing first, yoke fen and I went to kim gary and checked out whether we can bring in outside foods. So, the answer is "NO". Then, I suggested to meet han liang 1st as he told me that he already reached and waited at the cinema entrance. After that, a guy came to find us, named siew fai. After that, we walked around to find a birthday cake and bought sien wei present.

Edwin and sien wei came to us in a short while after yoke fen received a call from edwin. Han liang suggested to go redbox for karaoke, lunch and celebration. This plan was on =)I was looking forward to sing k again too hahaha...We sing sing sing till 3pm wow!!! That was awesome because I really enjoy singing today than I was with sabrina, sorry to say that. Maybe it's because the songs we chose and sing are matched LOL..Most of the songs are my favourite and can sing la of course haha..

Done karaoke session, the boys decided to go for bowling..At first, I really don't want to play because I have no skill with bowling and I have negative thinking of it. I was thinking I will follow the bowl rolled into the hole =P But by looking at the boys' playing, seems fun, edwin asked me to give a try and yoke fen decided to play a game at another lane so I shared with her. So, I gave myself a try on bowling =) Whoa, I think I have addict to bowling surprisingly haha..I wished I can have a bowling session again soon..!!! 3 more weeks to go, so I can spend more time on badminton, bowling, swimming and other sports, hooray!!!! I'm happy that I learned a new sport today =)


It was a tiring day but was fun. However, I'm back to the sad world now because I get scolded by parents due to long hours out there. I know everytime I go out, come back sure get scolded, considered used to it already. But I became very sad this time, I don't know why and it makes me think that I'm lonely and I'm bad @@ I just don't want to make myself to think about that and I know I have getting back to the sickness again, hate it!!! When can I go back the original me? The happy-go-lucky, take things easy and cheerful me? Where're you??!!!!

I just can't stand with this feeling anymore..Everytime I get into this feeling, I can't stop myself from thinking negatively and wanna cry. After cry, I will still feel the same although will feel better huh..Who can save me?? Help me get rid of this feeling??!!! Help me throw away this feeling to far far away, don't ever come back to me pleaseeeee!!!!!!! I feel that I have no cure to my depression and sadness..Why have to be like this because of all the incidence happen?? I wanna be a strong girl and not the fragile one huh...

Okay, I guess I'm getting emo already, have to stop here to avoid it to become an emo post which it is suppose a happy one. Anyway, I have enjoyed a lot today, thanks to you guys. Wish you all have a good start for new semester this friday =)

Holidays still bored for me as I'm still helping my dad working =.= Those figures are like can't tally huh, I have rechecked it many many times..Forget it!!

I'm supposed to go pyramid with my friends today. At first, they said go for a movie and lunch but they called me and said don't want movie already huh, make the outing bored only haiz..I look at my purse and I realised I have not much money left as I need money for tansformers movie, Sien Wei's birthday present, new clothes and my textbooks huh..I have spent 40 bucks for lunch last week, damn expensive huh..So, I decided not to go.

I need to go out with yoke fen to buy sien wei's birthday present tomorrow, hopefully not that expensive la because I'm going to bankrupt already *touch wood*. I'm going to watch transformers with gordon, and waiting for sien wei, his frens and shien yin see whethere they wanna go anot..! On thursday, julian said he wanna bring me and other friends to 1U, hopefully my parents let. I'm going out with Audrey, my long lost primary buddies haha aka my neighbour for lunch this friday before she's going back to melbourne next week =)

Due to H1N1, I can't really go out haiz..Thought to have a nice holidays with all my friends this whole month *.* I think I will start watching the 15 anime dvds (7 shows)burned by my friend last week haha..

1. Honey & Clover
2. Honey & Clover II
3. Kyouran Kazoku Nikki
4. Chobits
5. Bokura Go Ita
4. Ouran Host Club
5. Hayate No Gotoku!
6. Shakugan No Shana
7. Shakugan No Shana II

I still have Nicholas Teo's 无敌三宝妹, AOD's 仁心解码 (psychology show)and other nice show haha...I think I'm gonna be tv addict already but nah not going to watch tv show so often once new semester starts LOL..

Really need to enjoy this whole holiday before back to the stressful, hectic and busy life haha..Friends, bring me out to have more fun la!!!!

Well, I have been busy working for my dad and just went out with my buddies few hours only. It was not a very enjoy one because I have curfew as in have to help my dad finish his work, so I have no choice. I feel bored and everyday have to key in all the data into the software.

Hopefully, the work that have assigned to me can be finished by tomorrow because I wanna start my planning for my club and socities' activities and really go out with my friends haha...Because of H1N1, I don't think my parents will let me go out often so need to find something to do at home. I wish I can get all my next semester units' books so I can read on it before I start semester. At least I have something to do and be prepared for next semester, I wanna do even better than this semester!! Wish me luck =) Good result=Good Future=Good Career+Good Boyfriend+Good Family=Good Life!!!

I guess I will go and find a part time job to earn more money to pay my coming semester's books which will cost me around RM600, WOW!! At the same time, I wanna go shopping!!! There're many sales everywhere and really worth to buy!!! I need new clothes and shoes =)

Also, I think I have gained weight since my holidays start LOL..I have been eating so much everyday =.=" I love to eat, that's why lo!! It's okay..I'm planning to do exercise and keep myself slim, healthy and increase my stamina =D Hmmm, I'll be going for swimming classes and evening jog..Really need exercise because sometimes too stress and I can't relax myself due to lack of exercise..So, I wanna keep myself healthy by exercising and eat healthily ~~

I was thinking to buy a new laptop but I guess I have no budget for it at the moment so I will invest a new digital camera. I start to love photography and camwhoring hahaha =P


Time for dinner!! **Hope you(bie)'ll get well soon! I know I can't help you because I can't be by your side and take care of you already but I will try my best to help you to cure your coughing okay?! =) take care!

It was my birthday yesterday. I'm so happy because of everyone's birthday wishes through facebook and sms!! What I have received from my friends are 1 teddy bear (yay!!), scarf and one small secret recipe cake from my high school friend =) I love those gifts very much and I bought myself 张栋梁 Nicholas Teo's album that day, wow!!! Hahaha...I'm going to his promo with synomone this saturday..Can see him in reality LOL..

My friend burned me 15 anime dvds to ease my boredom, wohoo!! I haven't start watch them yet. Will start it when I finished helping my dad to work =/ I still have some taiwanese shows with me which I have not watch them yet too..Must watch all before start new semester because once start study, no time for me to even watch tv @@

My holidays so far okay but still kind of bored but getting to have plans on =) This whole week will be spending time to do my dad's work and once a while going to pyramid lol..I'm going to watch Transformer with julian, ee ling and jie ying tomorrow, yay!! Next, kar leng said she wanna go kitschen buyy clothes and me too. You know why?? Hahaha because sales!!! 10%, 20%, 30%, 50%, 70%!!!!!!!! Wow, most of the clothes there are really really nice and with the discounts, it's worth to purchase kekeke^^^ Hope I can buy them home =P


Well, I have nothing much to do today as usual but am going to sunway college to support him for exam as I promised him while we were still together. Even next time he has exam will still go support him no matter what. Yeah I have let go but still will be his supporter for everything he'll be doing..I believe that if we have the fate, we'll be together soon..Just bear with his parents says..So bie, I will always be there for you, remember!!! You're not alone okay? Good luck and all the best for your exam later, I'll be there to send my concern, love and cares to you ya! Below picture is for you, Gambatte!!!

Trying to forget about him, but all the memories still keep on flashing around..

Can't do anything because he want to be mummy boy and just do whatever things he think will let him less trouble huh..You think life can be like that always meh?? Life is getting harder, and we need to challenge it as we grow up huh..

Alright, I'm planning to buy either MP3 or iPod. BUDGET!!! Over budget if I buy iPod, Not sure about future technology if I buy MP3 hmmm...









Next, I'm also planning to study japanese but the time is like, not really suit..LOL sickening...need plans haha...

Still a bored holidays for me now >.<

I'm in the 3rd day of holidays, it seems bored and suffered for me I guess..

What I have done? Nothing, everyday sit at home, and get scolded by parents..I used to it already but ever since that day I came back late from pyramid with my friends, they kept scolding me where I can't stand it and I don't want to talk much so as to won't feel any offences and what so ever but even worse huh..Sometimes I really don't know how to live happily..

Okay, I decided to stop thinking about him and get all my depression and sadness away, thought to have a relax and clear mind, but another side of suffer coming..No one know how I feel when I am in depression..I need to keep all to myself and cope with it! I don't know where to go to release myself and happiness 24/7..Enough of sadness and depression..I feel I'm so old, weak and fragile if I keep on like that..

I WANNA BE THE CHEERFUL GIRL!!!!

What happen? Can anyone tell me why I'm facing so many hardships huh? It's okay, emo-ing at the moment because I have no freedom as in I can't go out with friends, even when I go out with them, I'm sure, 200% sure, my parents sure will nag and scold me neither come back early or late..It's all the same..I feel so fed up sometimes..I wanna sleep to avoid any arguements and stuff and sometimes I feel really tired, just need a short nap, get scold again =="

Because of I'm in this situation, most of my friends will not wanna ajak me out for anything because they know I can't go out with them, how sad it is??!! I like got a distance with them haiz..

Especially now, I feel sensitive with all those scolding and nagging because he left me, no one to share my sadness and happiness..I feel my life empty..I start to realise that he is kind of person who want you then if he will come to you, when he gets you, then he put you aside, even now we're not together, at least, as bro&sis, should care also, but he didn't ==" only I still care for him..Not appreciated though..

I feel that guys are cruel somehow, I know it's not applicable to all..They break promises and never care about us huh..As my friends said, don't trust guys fully, they might not truthful to us haiz...

Well, I was really sad the night before yesterday because bie leave me. Just because of his parents said we're young and no way for u ==" We're already 19, not small kids anymore, I just don't understand what are the thoughts of his parents in their mind. Although my parents is kind of old fashion, they also didn't really reject and if I'm able to cope with my studies, then everything is fine huh.. His family is a western style of life I guess, not supposed his parents is more open?? @@ Haiz, he decided to listen to his parents and don't wanna fight for our love, so how i persuade him also no use, it's just wasting my time, energy and saliva.

Bie, I tell you I cried for you and cried everything because you don't want to take initiative to fight for our relationship. All your reasons that you told me can actually solve-able, just that you're too sturborn that don't even wanna think about it..It's so hurt you know..! Although I'm better now and said to be the old us (bro&sis), I still hope we can be together, waiting for you to become brave!!!

Alright, exam is over and it's the time to take good rest and do something that I have been thinking of to do. I'm still thinking what should I do during the whole 1 month before I start my new semester. It'll be a tough period when you're in the semester as there'll be tonnes of assignments to do and I'm active in 2clubs&societies and MUSA-Business School. It'll be a real busy time for me but I would take the challenges and enjoy it hahaha!!! Because I made myself into all those responsibilities, I become a person who can think widely, managed to handle many things at once, time management and so forth.. However, I still have a room for improvement, I still need to be more outgoing, so that I can be a better person especially I'm a business student.

1 month neither short nor long..I know I can do a lot of things throughout the whole month. My previous plans have been cancelled because of him who made the decision, so I feel so empty and don't know what to do for my holidays. I have no incentive to plan it now, as my happy feeling for all these planning gone!!! However, I will definitely go for badminton (my favourite sport), watch dramas that I have missed out so much, shopping, reading books, help my father to do work, find a part-time job in my current university, hang out with my old buddies and maybe go for japanese class. Not to forget, I still have to settle all my Leo and Monex Club activities LOL.. Leo: First Aid Class & PAWS-Cross stich; Monex: Singapore trip..Actually, my holiday not bad, just that I hoping I can do more..Ahaha, nearly forgot, SMKSU, my former high school will be having Family Day on 4th july (Saturday). So, I'll be meeting my old friends, YAY!!! But I promised to bring bie along, haiz too bad, now everything is over. Because he will not appreciate what I have planned. I feel all disappointment on all guys!!

I went to pyramid with my darlings (yi wen, faustina & yong zhen) right after our last paper last evening. We went to buy scarf for ourselves, nice and cheap though. After that, 3 of them went into a shop to buy shirts. I didn't buy any shirts because I know my parents will scold me on spending on shirts, so I hardly buy shirts without them. Next, we proceed to H2O shop to buy face scrub (faustina buying) lol..Then, I suggested to go bookshop to search for some books to read but I can't find any books that interest me and the price of those books are high. Undecisive on what to buy for reading, then we proceeded to Nandos to have our dinner, wow it was an expensive one but I enjoyed =P Hahaha, after that, Faustina went to buy breads for her friends who were crying (Life is hard!!!) and I bought bread for my family.

Last shop we visited before we went home was Speedy!! Hehehe guess what I have bought??!!! I bought 张栋梁-沉默的瞬间 new album ^^ I love his songs so much. He will be having his promo on 27th June, 4 promo one shot a day, wow!!! I'm planning to go to his 3rd promo of the day which will be held in pyramid haha, nearest to my house lol..Lets listen to his songs and memorise all before meet him up, excited!!! =)

I'm supposed to sleep lol, very sleepy now because I didn't sleep well the night before yesterday (crying+exam stress+sad+depress)!!! Alright, will have more updates sooon..Goodnight all..Wish my friends who are having test later in either morning or noon good luck!! Gambatte yo!! =)

Have been going through hardship, depression and sadness throughout the weekend because of the stress on management exam paper today. I was so nervous and worried that I'm not able to answer the questions. Management is not for me as I don't really understand most of the things from the beginning. I have been married to the textbook from morning to late night but my brain seems that sesak. My friends also facing the same problem as me because we're sitting on the same boat haha. However, I was more suffered because I was having bad gastric, migraine and leg muscle cramp =/. All these sicknesses are due to lack of sleep, accumulation of didn't eat well, depressions and so forth. Thanks my bie for being supportive and cheer me up. Without his words, I don't think I can stand all the hardships because how my friends motivate me, all didn't work on me somehow.

I know I have walked out of the bad experiences I had previously but depressions and bad memories still in my brain cells >.< Sometimes, I really hate myself of being like that..Anyhow, I really wanna kill all those in my brain cells as for my own good and have promised my bie. I will appreciate what I have now, everyhthing!! I will now give all my hearts to my family, my dearest bie, friends and my education!! These people are the most important in my life. I will never let you all go and don't ever leave me alone, never, never, never!! Please bring me the fragile girl back to the strong me, I do not want to be the fragile one because it's not a good!

I still have one more paper to go for my final which is microeconomics. Well, I do like economics and I feel it better than management but I also have to work hard for it la..I really hope my first semester result is a good one as in all above distinctions but the lowest grade I can accept will be credit lo. Pray hard for everything, gambatte :)

I feel happy because I met bie today right after my exam. It was a nice meet but aiyo don't know why I was so silence although I got lots of things to talk about, sorry bie. However, I was not as nervous as I thought at least. I'm glad that I can meet him today. He shines my life with happiness. I hope we can let our parents know we're together by this week. As this sunday is Father's Day, I have an idea to take this opportunity to let both of parents know, a surprise for them =) Okay, after my last paper, I really have to make full used of the 1 month holidays to do whatever things I want and I missed and of course will accompany my bie LOL..!! Not to forget, my fellow friends' outings haha..

Weeks of examination already arrived...

Well, I'm so disappointed that I couldn't finish my Bus&Econs Stats where I know how to do everything questions. What a waste?? Haiz..I can't do anything to it but just hope that when result is out, it is what I expect..However, it was a nice attempt for this subjects. I still remembered when I came to make a decision between whether to take Bus Stats (easy) or Bus&Econs Stats (hard), I was so worry that I can't cope with it as my seniors said it is a hard one..But after all, I feel that it is okay for me, too bad I'm not going to major in this area =/

I had my accounting and finance paper today. It was a fine paper. During the 10 minutes reading time, I quickly went through the whole paper and tried to recall what I have read because I don't want to miss any corners and parts for this paper..I'm aiming so high for this unit lol..Luckily, I know how to do all, somehow I forgot some points, but it's alright..

2 down and 2 more to go!! I have no mood to study today as I got migraine, leg-ache, feel like vomit...Haze made us like that >.< why every year must have haze?? =.= So, I'm planning to study tomorrow, hopefully I'm able to finish 90% of it by tomorrow..Sunday left with 10% and won't be too stress for exam on monday =/ Wish me luck lol!!!

Okay, it's time to go to bed..Tired after stress =( Need to wait and study tomorrow..

1. The person who tagged you is: Richard Koh Chee Kin

2. Your relationship with him/her is: Boyfriend/girlfriend

3. Your first impression of him/her is: Cute =P

4. The most memorable moments with he/she is: At the moment not yet but soon to have!

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you is: I love you?!

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will... He is already my lover and I hope we'll be the forever one :)

7. If he/she became your lover, what should he/she improve that: improve? haha be brave and I hope much *keep in secret*

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, what will you do: No enemies for me no matter how bad the person treat me, so as him :)

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be: Backstabbed and talk bad about me!!

10. The most desired things you want to do for him/her now is: Everything that I can do for him all...

11. Your overall impression on him/her is: Quiet

12. The characteristic you love most about yourself: Friendly

13. The characteristic you hate most about yourself: Jealousy and sometimes too kind

14. The most ideal person you want to be is: Can be trusted, love and care for me :)

15. For people who care and love you, say something to them: Thanks for everyone be my side, support and keep me comfort everytime I faced hardship..

16. Pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you:
1.Sook Kuan , 2. Shien Yin , 3.Richard , 4.Ee Ling , 5.Yi Wen , 6.Jennie, 7.Qi Hong
8.Patricia, 9.Flora, 10.Sien Wei

17. Who is 6 having a relationship with? Not sure lol..

18. Is 9 a male or a female? Female

19. What is 2 studying at the moment? Bachelor (Hon) Psychology

20. Who was the last person you had a chat with? Richard (sms)

21. What kind of music does 8 like? Not sure but I guess sentimental gua..

22. Does 1 have any siblings? Yup, 4 including her if I'm not mistaken..
23. Is 4 single? Yes!

24. What is the surname of 5? Yap

25. What's the hobby of 3? Facebooking and chatting :)listening to music!

26. Do 7 and 9 get along well? They do not know each other..

27. Where is 10 studying at? Sunway University College.

28. Say something casual about your eyes: Big as many people said..

29. Have you tried developing feelings for 2? Haha friendship?!

30. Where does 9 live? USJ

31. What colour does 4 like? Pink I guess..

33. Does 2 like 7? No!

34. How did you get to know 8? During AUSMAT :)

35. Does 3 have any pets? Yup, dog :)

36. Is 7 the sexiest person in the world? Not sure!

37. Are you sexy? *No comments*

38. What am I doing now? Blogging and chatting LOL..

Tagged by Ee Ling

001. Real name: Teo Shu Wen
002. Nickname(s): Shu, Wen, Mun Mun
003. Age: 19
004. Horoscope: Cancer
005. Male or Female: Female lol
006. Elementary: Tadika Ladybird
007 Middle School: SJK (C) Lick Hung
008. High School: SMK Subang Utama
009. College school: Sunway University College / Monash University
010. Hair colour: Black but planning to highlight :P
011. Long or short: Average
012. Loud or Quiet: Middle
013. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans
014. Phone or Camera: Both!!
015. Health freak: ????
016. Drink or Smoke: Drink?
017. Do you have a crush on someone: Of course
018. Eat or Drink: Both!
019. Piercings: Both!
020. Tattoos: Nope, never!
021. Social or Anti-Social: Social
022. Righty or Lefty: Right
023. First piercing: primary school time
024. First relationship: -secret-
025. First Best Friend: -many wo-
026. First Award: standard 1
027. First Kiss: ~not to mention~
028. First Pet: don't have LOL
029. First Big Vacation: Japan?!
030. First Love at First Sight: Yup hehe ^^
031. First Big Birthday: Standard 2
032. First Surgery: Choi choi choi....
033. First sport you joined: Badminton!!
034. Orange or Apple Juice: Apple!
035. Rock or Rap: Depends..
036. Country or Screamo: Hmm....
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: Maybe Backstreet boys
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: No for both lol..
039. Night or Day: Night i guess hehe..
040. Sun or Moon: Moon..
041. TV or Internet: Both!!
042. Playstation or xbox: I don't play games xD
043. Kiss or hug: Both!
044. Iguana or turtle: Nope!!
045. Spider or bee: Nope!!
046. Fall or spring: Spring
047. Limewire or iTunes: I think iTunes better!
048. Soccer or baseball: Not interested!
049. Eating: YES!!!
050. Drinking: YES!!!
051. Excitement level: Can go to maximum!!! :P
052. I'm about to: get crazy...
053. Listening to: songs
054. Plan for today: study..
055. Waiting for: finals and the 1 month holidays..
056. Energy level: Hmmmm.....
057. Thinking of someone: Kind of...
058. Want kids: Yeah but not now lol...
059. Want to get married: Yeah, not so fast lar....
060. When: When I think it's the time lor...
061. How many kids do you want: 2 kids :)
062. Any name in mind: At the moment not yet...
063. What did you want to be when you were little: Child Specialist Doctor!!
064. Careers in mind: for now, an accountant and own a business..!
065. Mellow future or wild: ????
066. Something you would never try: Drugs and clubbing...
067. When do you want to die: I don't want...
068. Lips or Eyes: Eyes...
069. Romantic or Funny: Both!!!
070. Shorter or Taller: Medium??!!
071. Protective or Caring: Both!!!
072. Romantic or Spontaneous: Both!!!
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms: Both!!
074. Sensitive or Loud: ?????
075. Hooked-up or Relationship: ?????
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant: ?????
077. Muscular or Normal: LOL...
078. Kissed a stranger: Never...
079. Broken a bone: Nope..
080. Lost glasses or contacts: Last time xD
081. Ran away from home: Nope la...
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense: No, dangerous!!!
083. Killed somebody: No..
084. Broken someone's heart: No...
085. Had your heart broken: Always..
086. Been arrested: LOL..
087. Cried when someone died: Yes of course huh...
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: Yeah..
089. Yourself: hehehehehe..what you think??
090. Miracles: Hope there are...
091. Love at first sight: ehhhhmmmm...
092. Heaven: LOL....
093. Santa Claus: CHRISTMAS!!!
094. Tooth fairy: kakakaka....
095. Kiss in the first date: no hehe..
096. Angels: LOL...
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now?: Yeah...
098. Happy with where you're in life now?: yeap
099. Do you believe in God? Yes!!
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 6 people.


People who I wanna tag are:
*Sook Kuan
*Shien Yin
*Jason
*Sien Wei
*Patricia
*Yu Liang

Exam Week!!

Time passed really fast, I'm almost finish my semester 1. And now is in the month of june, which is the examination month..

I'm the original me that I always nervous and worry so much..I gotta cool down myself in order to have a fresh mind to do my revisions and exams. It is not good if you keep on stress yourself, it will scary one..

Can't believe that next thursday is my 1st day of finals. Finals will started off with Business and Economic Statistics, Principle of Accounting and Finance, Management and Microeconomics..

I will have to start the war for the next 2 weeks..All good lucks friends must come help me oh, you're so important to me :P

Alright, I have decided to let you go..You're not important to me somehow..No matter how much I love you, all your doings and attitudes are not suitable for me..Yeah, I agreed that you're a romantic guy but not high percentage over other characteristic of yours..I don't like to have a guy likes to flirt with many girls, while he is already engaged or not responsible for what he has promised..You're not worth it anymore..I hope the girls out there, please don't trust guy so much especially guy like him, seriously don't ever attempt, you'll get hurt..

I have to fight with my spirit that no more him in my heart and mind, he is just a normal friend of mine..I regret that I shouldn't accepted him at the very beginning..Thank god, that you have pull me out from this person..I have learned a lot life experiences, so I can handle my new lifestyle better than previous..I appreciate it and I will think twice before I make any decisions..

Wish me luck while doing my revision for this whole week!! Need to be concentrate!!