I told myself to stop all negative thinking but then once I listen, see and read about sweet topics, it reminds me back to why wanna make myself to keep away from thinking negatively. I'm not sure ever since when I start to love to think negatively. It's so distracting and miserable. It weaken my soul, weaken my heartbeat, weaken my thoughts....Huh...

I had got an additional insight of what do you mean by "attached" that you used to tell me last time..I know just a month of together, I can feel the attached already..Knowing you are busy with your work, I didn't wanna disturb you because working is important and earning money is our target of life..

I admit that I might be too sticky..I know I being strange to you at the very beginning because I fear, but you given me confidence! I started to in love with you, I really have lots of things in mind for rest of our journey. I willing to learn things that I don't know. Seeing you so hardworking to work, you're indirectly hinting me that you want a better life in future, I know that!

Knowing you are going to vacation for the whole week, so planning to call or text you to say enjoy and take care but I not dare to because I scared you're busy..Just waiting for you to do so..Telling myself to leave myself and you alone because I might be annoying sometimes (don't mind talk bad about myself) so that you won't have distractions and I can follow my schedule..But I really miss you, baby!

I have lost my words in mind now..! >"<

Just to say out: I miss you, I love you more that I can say, baby! =( Hope you get it! Take care in krabi and don't busy with your work without having good sleeps and skip meals okay?..

Mooncake Festival!

每年一度的中秋节即将来临了,
这季节又代表了什么?
每户人家都聚在一起,
望着圆圆的月亮,
吃月饼,
喝中国茶,
大人聊聊天,
小孩们一起提灯笼和玩游戏,
这都给咱们一股家庭温暖的感觉.



传统的月饼是巧克力色的,
但今日的月饼已是五颜六色了.
这是述说着我们的生活都是七彩缤纷吗?
不管我们身在何方,
喜怒哀乐是不可能逃避的.
此外,月饼也能把你心里的痛和烦恼,
带出苦,带进甜,
把开心都给你.



挂在半空中的灯笼带给了我们希望,
灯笼就像我们与神之间的秘涵.
祝家人平平安安,
国泰民安,
做每一件事都顺顺利利...



中秋节快乐!!!!

FINALLY, marketing assignment is finished! I don't know what I did whether is correct or wrong..Couldn't bother so much already because not enough time + I have tried till the maximum to find information >.<" However, I satisfied with my work =)

I don't feel like doing anything tonight as I'm so tired and wanna have a nice and early sleep..I left one last assignment for this semester to complete which is accounting..Knowing it'll be harder than last assignment, so I'll probably study the question now and start doing it, maybe the day after tomorrow as my friend borrowed my MYOB guide book =S

In order for me not to get bored during the 1 week break, am going to PAWS trip, education seminar, WALKATHON and of course not to forget my assignment la ^^ People out there, if you have nothing to do on 4th of October, please come and join WALKATHON! Come and walk for the Green =) It's only RM15 and you can get a T-shirt, goodies and etc haha..!

Monash ball is tomorrow! Well, I'm excited yet feel unprepared lol..Don't know why..Feel a bit awkward though..Anyway, I will try my best to enjoy it fully la..Can eat yummy food and enjoy the atmosphere of the ball =D LOL!

Final exam is around the corner..Really have to get the head start by this weekend lol..Wanna bring up my cgpa and get good results so that I don't need to struggle for life after graduate..Need motivation to start to do revision seriously..Lately, not so in a good mood though, trying to be cheerful lol..

Knowing that I lose 59 ballots to my opponent for the musa election, don't know what's my feeling but then it was not a big gap of difference from her ballots, so I don't feel embarrased lol..Anyway, it's a good try! I would try harder next time if I decide to go champaigning again for the next fiscal year =) Gotta see the workload lo..For now and next year, I wanna concentrate in my studies, my baby, my family, leo club and musa subcommitte =D

Have been busy doing marketing assignment during the raya holidays, yet it's not fully done and finalised >"< 1000 words is not enough for this piece. Because of the word limit, I gotta keep control the word count and what should I write =S No matter how, I really need to finish it by tonight because the due date for this assignment is tomorrow lol.

If I'm able to finish by tonight, then I will not need to struggle so much and can enjoy shopping for my ball preparation =)

Yesterday, I finally bought myself a teal dress, though I wanted a purple one. LOL. But the seller messaged me that the purple is available now haha..I'm still thinking whether want to buy or not as the price of the dress is cheap =) hmmmm...

I still need a pair of colour contact lens and earrings..I think I have high heel shoes but gotta find it lol..If don't have, I will borrow from my auntie ba ^^

For the past few days, I really have gone into recession..Why? Haiz...Anyway, trust and understanding should be there for you..So, I wouldn't want to think so much..I'm almost get mad of it >.<" Hope you're fine over there! God Bless!!

Back to marketing assignment!!! ciaozz...

In a game, there must have a winner and loser,

No matter you're the winner or loser,

We're still part of the group =)

Here to congratulation to my friends who won for the positions,

Also, don't be sad for those friends who lost including me >"<

Well, yeah it's a waste but I know well that my chances of getting is low,

Because my opponent is more famous than me, so no disappointment, etc..

Thanks to those who voted for me and those who did not vote for me =)

Knowing that I have lost the post,

However, I'm able to concentrate more in my studies and leo club,

Be part of the subcommittee also a good thing, not so stressed up!

Besides that, I can have more time for myself,

And it'll not be an obstacle for me to apply student exchange..

Overall, there're still benefits for me,

So no point to be upset over the result though =)

Don't know why, have not been in a good mood the whole day. I'm still wondering why. Is there anything bothering me? I seriously don't know.

I'm trying to figure it out but I couldn't. Feel so suffered when you don't know why you feel sad and even if you know. Hmmm why life has to be like that?

I know that my crying are coming back but I take a hold. I don't want to cry because I know myself will get into emo easily and don't know what I will do next.

I know there're many people care for me and concern about me but I just can't make my way. No one will understand how I feel. I can't share with my family because I don't want them to worry and always think about me!

No good for them 24/7 worry about me. I'm already grown up, I want to be independent to solve my own problem..Somehow, I have lost my way. I don't know from where to build my confidence, from where I can start my path all over again..

It's hard for me to stay calm, maybe I feel life is still unsecure for me. Not to blame or say who, it's true, I realised I have changed alot from last time. Neither good nor bad?! Good, maybe I'm able to speak compared to last time; Bad, I become a fragile girl, lose confidence in life easily, easy to break down =(

Why I became like that? Why I can't just be like last time, no matter what hardships I faced, I can be strong and stand firm for it, but I can't for now??

Nothing happen to me, it's what I really feel it right now..! Share it here >.<

To do list for the week :

- Marketing essay assignment

- Revision for all subjects

- Clean my study area

- Summary for business law

- Sign Language...

- Download songs =)

- Watch some movies and anime

- Find dress for monash ball

- Spend time with baby =P (Important!)

Trust is important in a relationship :)

Understand each other also the same..

Without these, we can't go far..

Realising that I'm into you which is getting deeply,

Always thinking far with you in my mind,

I'm actually have plans to make our life interesting..

Yes, I might be still a small girl,

Lots of things to learn, do and experience,

But this is a process of life,

I will do my level best for you,

I wanna make specials for you,

Though you said you don't really like it..

Because of you,

What I wanna do,

What I wanna spend,

Are all special ones, my baby!

I wish we have more time to spend together,

I will always be there for you,

I will always the one who support you whatever things you do,

Because you're my baby, forever,

I will be the backbone of your life..

What I do and plan now,

It's all for you and our journey of life..

Baby, I miss you and I love you!!! =)

Have not been a good one nor a bad one recently...

Thank you for coming into my life...

Though I have no confidence at first,

But I give a damn to start it,

I managed to control my depression, sadness and etc,

Although sometimes I really cannot..

Because of you,

My confidence starts to grow up again,

Sorry for the first time of being so strange to you,

But you know I didn't mean that,

I'm trying to overcome the past experience,

And I know you as well...

Because of you,

I really feel the love is coming back,

Just a little more time to warm it up...

Even we have just started a week plus,

I simply affirmed you that you're mine,

I just wanna tell out you're mine,

I just wanna spend more time with you,

I'm giving all my love to you,

I'm willing to change and do everything for you with my strength...

Loving you is important other than studies and family,

You're part of my life,

I just wanna go far with you...

Don't know why I'm really in love with you,

Very scared that I will lose you...

Seriously,

I really really hope that you're the one I should have meet...

Trust me that I can give you what you have in previous,

I do trust you you can give me what I had before and not....

Obviously, we do have our own path of love,

Do not repeat any past mistakes,

Move forward and appreciate what we have now,

I believe we can go further...

I love you...

Stresss, stresss, stressss....

Why say so?

Many things to think about..!

I don't feel good everyday,

I just hope I can be unconscious a while,

So that I don't need to think,

I'm not sure why I have this feel for days,

Something wrong with me, I wonder..?!

Wake up in the morning just hope the days are bright,

But somehow I can't really feel it,

Anyone can tell why??

Something bothering me? I don't know seriously..

I would want to do something to make things go smoothly,

No repetition of mistakes,

Do better for the new one...

Why I just feel so miserable??

Why I have to think negatively always??

Am I too sensitive of things or what??!!

I really don't know what to do...

Crying can mean nothing,

But I can't control myself...

Save me, God!

I just want a simply life,

Happy, joyful, loving and peaceful!!!

Days are getting tougher and miserable..

Just don't know why I'm back to the emo out of sudden lol..

Because of procrastination, busy-ness, boring days...?

Time passed so fast especially this semester,

I couldn't believe the semester already reached week 7,

Yet, I'm still very blur with my studies..

It's the time to catch up as there'll be another holiday on the coming Monday,

Hopefully, I'm able to revise whatever chapters that have been covered so far..

I used to think university life is easy and fun when I was young,

But I don't think so now,

It's so stress, hectic and many stuff to think and consider about..

As we grow older,

There'll be extra things to handle,

Well, it's a life cycle as what my friends said,

We can't escape from it but face it as challenges,

We have to learn from experiences, mistakes, failure and hardships,

Make sure we are doing the right thing and not the wrong thing...

God is testing us and bringing us to the right path of life,

We have to take the initiatives to work hard for our life,

After that,

If we success in everything although there're no perfection,

We will feel happy, joyful and good in our life,

God will be happy as well,

Hence, the world will be peace and healthy =D

Sleepyyyyyyy...LOL