Overall for this semester's exam was okay. For Marketing, it was a great paper I ever had but the thing is we need more time to do lor. It is too many to write but time constraint. For Business Law, well, the paper is interesting but somehow some part is really hard to apply the facts there but overall still okay. For Money Cap, it was a great paper too. I love the objectives questions, why?? Because most of it are from the mcq she gave, as for short questions, still okay, just that my brain go sesak, suddenly can forgot what to write >.<" Lastly, accounting paper was great although some part I don't really know how to do but overall good. I think I forgot to put in 2 accounts into the income statement..Stupid me =S
Expectation for the result:
~Marketing: HD
~Business Law: Credit or Distinction
~Money Cap: Distinction
~Accounting: Distinction or HD
Went to watch "2012" with Joeanne, Jason and Kenny yesterday afternoon. I was late to cinema ooaps! My apologise! Kena fine by Jason =P Just kidding haha^^ Well, it was an awesome movie. It is a movie talking about the world.
Sitting in the cinema for more than 2 hours, watching this movie, I started to worry about the world. I am scared the world will become like that one day seriously. I scared to lose my family, my beloved friends and everything that I care of. It makes me think negatively but in the sense of giving me a hint that I should grab the chances that I have in front of my eyes, I should do whatever things that I want, help the people who need helps and lots lots more. Life is about how to you processed it with your capability. Within the movie time, it reminds me how I planned for the journey where I wanted to be with him from now and to the future but it had all become rubbish because he left.
To you, my baby:
I don't know what had gone wrong in between as you don't even wanna to talk about it nicely and just think that everything is correct from what the rumors said. But do you know the real thing and how I suffered? I doubt you know. You have being cold to me for weeks, I started to worry that you will left me because I started to love you more as I gained my confidence by having your love to me. You show me your love, your care, me in your heart. You touches my heart and healed my depression, melt off my sadness and grown all happiness. But why you can suddenly to become like that??!! I understand that you still missed your past, so do I..I didn't blame you, force you, pressure you, fight with you, slap you or scold you because you still think about her. You know why? Because I love you!
I know to love someone, when comes to let go, it isn't an easy thing to do. If it's easy to let go means you are don't love enough or you totally don't love. I believe this is very true. When we started, we have agreed to comfort each other when think about the past. Yes, we did it! And I can see that you don't like me to keep in touch with my past because you know he will hurt me and so you show me how important of me in your heart.
Because of you, I changed myself to be a better person for you! I know your hobby-fishing, I have made up my mind to learn fishing so that I have in common with you although I know it's not what I like. Because of you, I have indulge myself into songs that you loved and songs that can represent what our heart wanna say. I really interpreted each and every songs that you loved. Because of you, I have became even more ambitious than previous because I can imagine or in fact can see how our future will be..I wanna study hard and get a good job. Also, study hard in order to help you in your business. I wanna be your best angel!I wanna be the one who can help you in any way and be the one you need for every moment! I always give you 10001% moral support for your working because I know you care how people think about you although you told me you are not.
Because of you, I willing to suffered your ignorant although I had once thought of giving up in this relationship but I believe that we are still love each other. I also know that you are suffering of thinking your past and having insomnia. I have done lots of research to see what I can do to solve your problem. I don't wanna see you everyday with the stress body to work! Besides that, I wanna help you to cure or at least reduced your sinus after I'm done with my exam. Moreover, I know you are a homey boy. You said you want me to cook for you. I have decided to learn cooking from my mum and buy cooking books to learn. I remember I owe you cookies as well.. Because I know you are too stress over work and thinking of the past, I have planned few trips to go with you so that I can spend more time with you and show my love to you. I know at the start, I was too busy with my club and socities work and so because of you, I willing to cut down my activities and balance up my time.
Everything I do and I planned to do, all are just for you, my baby! Do you know it?? The last conversation that we had, the way you talked to me, it was so hurt ='( You kept bomb me about what you heard from someone and put all anger to me. But I really don't know what happened and I seriously have no idea about it at all! And don't even wanna talked about it nicely and let me know what happened and just gone like that. Do you know how hurt it is and how depressed am I? I wondered who is the "someone".
I can't do anything now because I don't know how and I know you won't even give a damn to listen it. I have a great plan for your birthday but now you have destroyed it..I wanted to have a nice talk with you and wanna know what exactly happened. I don't mind we are not getting back together for the moment but just to know what makes you become like that??!! I still concerned about you! Do you know, everytime I passed by, walked by and looked at the place we went, listened to the songs we listened together, the songs you sent to me, I just can't stop myself from crying.
After all these happened, even I know I need someone especially you to be by my side, however, I lost my direction, I lost my sense, I lost my thoughts T.T I'm not dare to get into a relationship anymore. I'm sorry to reject those who asked me for relationship! I still love him and I have no more confidence in relationship =(
The last words that I wanna say to you now: I love you, baby!
Will continue tomorrow! It's the time to sleep, I have to work tomorrow..Wish me all the best for my new job =) Hope it goes well! Goodnight ^^
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