Back again...!

It's been a long time since I last blogged. Well, it is because of busying with studies and lost my feeling towards blogging...Mostly no time to blog lol =) but I'm back now!

Exam is around the corner which is the week after next..Am I prepared? Answer is NO!!! Not even a subject, I have done with revision. Can consider slacking and slow...I just wanna score well from this semester onwards. Good result = good future!! No more bad result and I think I should change my study method next year, or not, I will still the same me lol =)

Time passed really fast. Tomorrow will be my last day of classes for this semester, which means my second year done and it's approaching 3rd year (final year). I still thinking that I just came into study but I'm graduating for another 2 semesters. It's time to plan for my future in real, maybe after this coming exam. No more about the past, forget about it. It was a burden for me, where I know clearly know that =_="

Arghhh, the thing I hate is I can't concentrate while I wanna study for exam!!! Well, anyhow or whatever things, I will have to stay focus and be serious with it..Laziness no more pleaseee....!!!! がんばってください~~

Alright, will not blog till exam ends..And promise after exam, there'll be more bloggings =P with photos, since going for travel!! Can't wait!!! =)

Hereby, wish everyone who are taking exam, all the best and good luck!!!加油!!! Goodnight ♥

Hmmmm......

Congratulation to Netherlands!!! Didn't sleep the whole night until the match over..At first, the match was so confusing and don't really know what were the players playing. But it was a great match. I was shouting all the way and my mum said I'm so noisy hahaha..Just a bit of excited when Netherlands almost scored goals..One of the player, if not mistaken, player no. 14, his nose and front teeth were kicked by the Uruguay no. 22 player..He bleed a lot, he has the sportman spirit where he still keen to play for the 1st half match =) Rest well, and play well in the final!!!

Another great match tonight, Germany vs Spain ^^ Gonna stay up for the match again.. Both team are good and wish for the best! Me of course support Germany hehehe =) Hopefully Germany got the chance to play in final..







I don't know whether am I thinking too much or what. I just can't stop myself thinking and stay calm. I just wish to meet you and talk to you. I don't know what happened suddenly and out of sudden become like that. I have thought about it many times. Most of the time I think is my fault. My demands, my negative thoughts, my words and the way I am are not right which make you feel that I have changed to another person who not what I am as last time. Can you give me a chance to talk to you..I really know my fault now, give me one more chance..You know I doesn't mean that, pleaseee...I miss you very much do you know? ="( Just one more chance!

Back to Bloggie...

It's been a while I have blogged again. So sorry for not updating as I have no feeling to write and was busying with my exam.

Well, there were many things happened for the past 1 month. First of all, talk about my examination. Before the exam, I am half confident and half worried because some of the topics I don't really understand. With the help of yoke fen, I somehow just got a click about the part of questions that I confused with. Thank you =) During the 3 weeks of preparation + examination, someone has actually motivated me along although it was just a simple one. I feel happy, comfortable and motivated me to study hard for exam.

For the first paper (Cost Info), it can said that I was well prepared compared to the other 3 units but out of no where the final paper is so so so much harder than past years and what we expected. When I was attempting the paper, I was once wanna give up but of course I not dare to because no try sure failed, you try there's a chance you might got it right and if you do, sure there is some pity marks. So I just hope that I will passed this unit =.= *finger crossed*

For the second paper (AIS), MCQ part was alright but not the practical questions especially modelling part..I guess I was too nervous over the paper. Go on, the third paper (Money Cap), it was quite okay for me and only some part I forgot the points but overall good ^^ And the last paper (Company Reporting), hmmmm it was okay also, only 1 of the questions, I didn't read it beforehand and I only able to remember some..but overall not bad too..

Semester result will be out on the next Friday but it is always come out on the day before (evening), I hope and wish my result is good~!!!! God Bless me!!!


About what had happened and what am I feel blank and lost the way, I really don't know what to say and don't feel like to share it now..I will just see how it goes..New semester is going to start again, what's my feeling? Hmm I have no idea at all, no feel, no nothing, don't know..Haiz..Well, another week to see what I can do perhaps..For now, just do whatever I can..

Everyone is heading to bed now because they wanna catch the football match (Uruguay vs Netherland) later at 2.30am..I am still thinking whether to join them..If I want, I need to sleep now and wake up later..But I am still so awake now >"< LOL...Lets see how..Which team will win?? I guess Netherlands has got the chance but need to see their performance =)

A week before final exam for the semester...

Woke up in the early morning because supposed to meet up with someone. Starting off with some reading on cost info subject while waiting a message to come..After a while, proceed to send emails to lecturers and read on company reporting online. Well, today's meeting up is cancelled, a bit of disappointment. It's okay..

My examination time table is as follow:
11 June 2010 - Cost Information for Decision Making
14 June 2010 - Accounting for Information System and Financial Modelling
18 June 2010 - Money and Capital Markets
21 June 2010 - Company Reporting
22 June 2010 - 18 July 2010 = HOLIDAYS!!!! =)

The days after assignments ended, the level of productivity is really totally out, not as usual. I have no idea what happened. I have talked to friends around me, they are the same as well. I wondered why hmmm....I think I have lack of motivation this time, although I have the strong mind that I wanna score well this semester!



I know part of the motivation is always come from someone but till now I don't have anything yet. Just hope someone can motivates me in a way. Also, I have to stary strong to fight with the lazy worms in my body. After all, only 1 week + for exam, one blink that's over. So have to work hard for the exam, then I can enjoy my birthday celebrations and go for relaxations (my plans!!!) ^^

Hereby, wish myself and everyone who are taking examination starting next week, GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST!!! =D

A moody day...

Well, it's been a long time I have blogged..And now, countdown 3 weeks to final for this semester. Time passed so fast! One blinked, half a year gone =S

How am I so far? Not too good and not too bad. About studies, I think I'm still okay with it. Today handed in last assignment for the semester and another last online quiz due next week. It's time to marry to the books and wish to get good scores this semester, cannot afford to have any low marks anymore. It's not going to be a fun thing.Just hope for the best and try my best.

Don't know why I'm not in a very good mood these days. I feel like I'm hating myself and whatever I do are bad and wrong..I really wondering what happened??!! I put my eyes to see and my heart to feel people beside me, well one of my friend is so emo about everything she faced, I don't comment much as I can't even handling myself well yet. Some are so good, because they have someone to accompany them when they are down, sick, sad, depressed, happy, excited and everything. And of course, can share out with parents but when you have someone in heart, you're just hoping him/her to be the one you can share with as well because he/she is one of the important one besides parents.

I have no idea why..Maybe because I'm too sensitive or whatever. I just feel unsafe and don't what sort of feelings I have now. A simple thing that I already mentioned many times, I'm tired to keep on mention. I have tried to ignore my down feeling, I wanna find someone to share my feeling out. But it seems no one =( I can only keep to myself. I can only force myself to do more work to keep myself busy that's all..

I still have parents' care of course and from friends as well but not you! Seriously, I don't know what to say anymore..I really hope my wish that I expected so long will come through soon..I'm scared, confused, etc...

Well, don't wanna make my blog so emo again. I just wanna express out my feeling here today, I feel a bit better now..I wish everyone who are having exam soon, a Happy Studying ^^ がんばってください!!! ciaoz...

Long time...

Sorry for being so long not updating my bloggie =)
Have been busy and lotsa things to settle!
I will be back here to share my moments with you in another few weeks time perhaps!

Stay tuned! ^^ Have a nice may month!!

Days during summer~

Right after my last semester's exam , I already started my internship for 3 months. Say long not long, say short not short. It was a great internship, I met quite a number of new friends aka colleagues. They are friendly and willing to help each other. The thursday was my last day of internship. Yeah I'm wishing to end it fast because I miss all my friends a lot but on the other hand, I don't wish to leave because I get used to work there LOL, contradicting =)

Remember when I was young, I used to wish myself to grow faster because study is torturing and thought working is fun. After I have started to work as in training especially this time, I realised that study is more fun. We should enjoy our study life as much as we can before step into working life seriously. Once you are involve in working life, it won't be an easy life anymore. You know why? Because you gotta work hard to cover up all your expenses, you gotta handle all things yourself everyday and etc.. This is life, we can't escape but to overcome and get everything done in our own ways ^^

Another day more, new semester starts again! Didn't know I'm in my 2nd year of degree and gonna graduate end of next year. Sounds time passed a bit fast and one year older already, no more teen for me =S After knowing my university has introduce new method of conducting classes and new syllabus, I'm actually got a fear and nervous =.=" however, there are challenges that I gotta face it and it's my future, so I will have to work hard =D I hope I can do better this semester and the remaining ones lol!



I have many thoughts and feelings in my heart but I don't know how to express, guess will share it in the next post! It's time to go sleep as tomorrow need to pray and cleaning up my place! Stay tuned ^^

Lastly, I wish all of you,

Little 1st Post in 2010!

Everyone is asking why am I not updating my blog for so long.....

It's been a while I didn't blog because I have been busy with my internship, summmer course and personal thing =)

No worries, I'm coming back! Will have a new look for my blog and start to have nice posts for you I suppose ^^

New songs on my small little ipod, background picture and new photos, etc...

I gotta go now, need to rest! Didn't sleep the whole night and gotta work out later for something =)

Thoughts......

Will be starting internship again around next week, yet I have not buy any attires for myself yet. Well, I am or in fact always looking forward to work for this company but somehow I think I am over-stress and worry this and that. I know I am a person who think a lot lol, no doubt..No matter how, I have to get myself office wears and stuff I needed for working by weekend >.<"

A new week started with happy or unhappy?? I really don't know..Life is still like that. Yeah holidays supposed to be fun and happy, enjoy and crazy around.. Haha but for me, I don't feel any especially this summer holidays.

I did nothing and I have no strength to do what I want because I think I have lost myself somehow. During holidays, I helped my friends a lot with their problems and god bless they will be alright. You guys will get it done soon yea, don't worry!

Just a short 1 1/2 week of listening to people's doubts and my own self, I realise life really getting harder because you don't know when it's true or when it's wrong; Will they appreciate or just ignore and think you're just a say..Reality?? Haiz I really don't know..I am not emo but just a thought where I faced right now.

助人为乐,不求任何回报..但是有时侯帮了人,又尽全力去帮了,他又这样的对我..难道我从开始就错了?? Not to say I am sad or what, just that whenever this happen to me, I feel no good. But seeing it, if I don't do, I feel uncomfortable..So miserable!!

1st week of Summer Vacation~

Well, the vacation started with no exciting because everyone was still having exam and some went back to hometown right after exam. I started to work on monday. I feel so tired and hard while starting so fast and I know nothing lol.

As I have planned to travel lots of place, but all also can't work at the end because friends don't want to go and family also like very lazy, bla bla bla..Haiz..Once working, I went to work early of the morning and came back for dinner, rest a while, sleep already..Not enough time lor..

However, even I have more time for myself, I feel bored and waste time because I have nothing to do. Facebook has get me into bored as I don't play game; Everyday MSN also getting bored because no one chat with and also waiting friends to online and chat haiz..Why so dull during holidays?? =(

I want to go shopping to buy new things for myself! I want to go for movies as there're a few more new ones coming up! I want to karaoke, I miss singing!!! Long time didn't play sport de, feel like go once and sweat it all out =)

I have got one thing wanna do hahaha..Guess what?? I think I have gained weight just one week holidays, erm in fact started from before exam, because I eat a lot to release stress LOL..So, I need to do more exercise and diet a bit..Want a nice body shape and look nice kekeke~~Somemore got a lot of pimples and marks on my face >.<" I need to cure it =.= So, decided to do more exercise, eat healthy & organic food and self-treatment on my face wahahahaha...

Just feel not comfortable everyday. I want someone beside me, comfort me, let me manja and talk to me =( But I know it won't happen so soon lar...

Now, 9+pm only, I'm still so bored haiz..Sometimes feel that having assignments are good in fact, because they occupied your time and you can learn more knowledge..When you have a lot assignments, you wish to have holidays..LOL so contradict man!

The 1st dull and boring vacation is going to end! Hope there're fun and joy in the coming week =)Coming week dates as follow:

- Teach my friend to do handcraft
- Date with yoke fen, twins and foong yee (my secondary bestie!)
- Shop for new attires for working
- and....(nothing yet hmmm..)

Words......

Have not been blogging about a week plus, because of final exam!

Overall for this semester's exam was okay. For Marketing, it was a great paper I ever had but the thing is we need more time to do lor. It is too many to write but time constraint. For Business Law, well, the paper is interesting but somehow some part is really hard to apply the facts there but overall still okay. For Money Cap, it was a great paper too. I love the objectives questions, why?? Because most of it are from the mcq she gave, as for short questions, still okay, just that my brain go sesak, suddenly can forgot what to write >.<" Lastly, accounting paper was great although some part I don't really know how to do but overall good. I think I forgot to put in 2 accounts into the income statement..Stupid me =S

Expectation for the result:
~Marketing: HD
~Business Law: Credit or Distinction
~Money Cap: Distinction
~Accounting: Distinction or HD



Went to watch "2012" with Joeanne, Jason and Kenny yesterday afternoon. I was late to cinema ooaps! My apologise! Kena fine by Jason =P Just kidding haha^^ Well, it was an awesome movie. It is a movie talking about the world.



Sitting in the cinema for more than 2 hours, watching this movie, I started to worry about the world. I am scared the world will become like that one day seriously. I scared to lose my family, my beloved friends and everything that I care of. It makes me think negatively but in the sense of giving me a hint that I should grab the chances that I have in front of my eyes, I should do whatever things that I want, help the people who need helps and lots lots more. Life is about how to you processed it with your capability. Within the movie time, it reminds me how I planned for the journey where I wanted to be with him from now and to the future but it had all become rubbish because he left.

To you, my baby:

I don't know what had gone wrong in between as you don't even wanna to talk about it nicely and just think that everything is correct from what the rumors said. But do you know the real thing and how I suffered? I doubt you know. You have being cold to me for weeks, I started to worry that you will left me because I started to love you more as I gained my confidence by having your love to me. You show me your love, your care, me in your heart. You touches my heart and healed my depression, melt off my sadness and grown all happiness. But why you can suddenly to become like that??!! I understand that you still missed your past, so do I..I didn't blame you, force you, pressure you, fight with you, slap you or scold you because you still think about her. You know why? Because I love you!

I know to love someone, when comes to let go, it isn't an easy thing to do. If it's easy to let go means you are don't love enough or you totally don't love. I believe this is very true. When we started, we have agreed to comfort each other when think about the past. Yes, we did it! And I can see that you don't like me to keep in touch with my past because you know he will hurt me and so you show me how important of me in your heart.

Because of you, I changed myself to be a better person for you! I know your hobby-fishing, I have made up my mind to learn fishing so that I have in common with you although I know it's not what I like. Because of you, I have indulge myself into songs that you loved and songs that can represent what our heart wanna say. I really interpreted each and every songs that you loved. Because of you, I have became even more ambitious than previous because I can imagine or in fact can see how our future will be..I wanna study hard and get a good job. Also, study hard in order to help you in your business. I wanna be your best angel!I wanna be the one who can help you in any way and be the one you need for every moment! I always give you 10001% moral support for your working because I know you care how people think about you although you told me you are not.

Because of you, I willing to suffered your ignorant although I had once thought of giving up in this relationship but I believe that we are still love each other. I also know that you are suffering of thinking your past and having insomnia. I have done lots of research to see what I can do to solve your problem. I don't wanna see you everyday with the stress body to work! Besides that, I wanna help you to cure or at least reduced your sinus after I'm done with my exam. Moreover, I know you are a homey boy. You said you want me to cook for you. I have decided to learn cooking from my mum and buy cooking books to learn. I remember I owe you cookies as well.. Because I know you are too stress over work and thinking of the past, I have planned few trips to go with you so that I can spend more time with you and show my love to you. I know at the start, I was too busy with my club and socities work and so because of you, I willing to cut down my activities and balance up my time.

Everything I do and I planned to do, all are just for you, my baby! Do you know it?? The last conversation that we had, the way you talked to me, it was so hurt ='( You kept bomb me about what you heard from someone and put all anger to me. But I really don't know what happened and I seriously have no idea about it at all! And don't even wanna talked about it nicely and let me know what happened and just gone like that. Do you know how hurt it is and how depressed am I? I wondered who is the "someone".

I can't do anything now because I don't know how and I know you won't even give a damn to listen it. I have a great plan for your birthday but now you have destroyed it..I wanted to have a nice talk with you and wanna know what exactly happened. I don't mind we are not getting back together for the moment but just to know what makes you become like that??!! I still concerned about you! Do you know, everytime I passed by, walked by and looked at the place we went, listened to the songs we listened together, the songs you sent to me, I just can't stop myself from crying.

After all these happened, even I know I need someone especially you to be by my side, however, I lost my direction, I lost my sense, I lost my thoughts T.T I'm not dare to get into a relationship anymore. I'm sorry to reject those who asked me for relationship! I still love him and I have no more confidence in relationship =(

The last words that I wanna say to you now: I love you, baby!



Will continue tomorrow! It's the time to sleep, I have to work tomorrow..Wish me all the best for my new job =) Hope it goes well! Goodnight ^^

How am I going to remember all the points huh?? I'm trying hard to study money cap and concentrate with it but seems I keep worry about am I able to answer during exam >"<

Thanks for people who keep motivating me and give me support! I guess tonight no matter what, I really need to finish up the chapters. The papers are getting nearer, really cannot slack anymore..Wanna score well for law definitely as my assignment is just barely passed, as well as for money cap, I want to score distinction at least =S

Give me more strength and good brain cells pleaseeeee......!!!!!! Stay awake and study....FOCUSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!

A few words for you......

Thinking and talked a friend about what had happened recently yesterday night. I don't know what causes it to fade off. Yeah, when we started it's my fault not to put in so much love because I have got the fear-the pain in my heart. You're the one show me your love and cares which slowly bring me in and I started to love you more. Then, you just went off like that.

Yeah, we just started not that long and why am I so loving you. I wondered why when I have no confidence, people give me confidence; when I have confidence, people break it. My heart has been broke for more than thousand times. I know it's a bit arbitrage but my heart will never heal well after breaks..



Because of you, I have think far about us. My parents said they can't afford me to study in australia but will do something to let me go, I choose not to go because of you. I know how hurt you have in your previous, that's why I'm trying to do my best for you. How you feel in the past, I have exactly feeling as you. But I don't think you know right? Haiz..No comments! I have many plans ahead for you..But you just don't give me a chance to tell you and just be as silence like that.

I really didn't know how would the sweet start and gone to questionable ending. I really don't know why it becomes like that. I always the last one to know what happen in between. It's okay. I know and I can see we will not have any further steps to go together anymore although I love you. Anyhow, I know I gotta put you down and wishes you all the best for your future in terms of career and love.

I'm not doubting that you're not a loyal person (don't know how to explain). If there's a girl that you think you're able to hold her, I can only wish you good luck. I will just be a concern friend for you. Because no matter what I wanna do for you, I guess it's nothing worth to you somehow so I choose to let you go. As you trust and listen to rumours more than me, so I have nothing to comment because like what the oldies said "if you didn't do wrong, just keep quiet, the person will know one day". I believe in this phrase. No trust and understand in a relationship will not last long, so yeah I choose to walk off from the relationship as in the pain and hurts. "The old don't go, how will the new one come by?", another oldies phrase =)

Love is so much complicated, sometimes really hard to handle it. I should have a new way of life. Take all the past as experience. I wish I have good results in my exam and work well for my internship later. I want a happy life and would want to have a change of myself. Also, I wish to have a boyfriend who loves me more, care for me from now and then and be by my side when I need him.



11th month of the year has arrived. The past 10 months I have gone through, it's a real hardship for me. I have become a wiser and mature girl. I have learned lots of things. I thank to people who aid throughout my hardship. Specially thanks to Jason and Joeanne, being my guidance! Appreciate you guys =) 2 more months and a brand new year will be coming, I really wish everything I do will go smoothly and what I want and wish to have can come by. God bless me! Without God, family and my beloved friends, I guess I'm gone from here. A big thanks to all!!

Time to catch up with my revision again! ^^ Peace..

Marketing was a fine paper for me. If the paper is 3 hours, I will definitely do better for it. However, over is over, hopefully can get a HD for it =)

Next, I will be having Business Law, Money and Capital and lastly, accounting! Business law is driving me crazy these few days. I don't really know how to do my notes as in how to arrange it. The main worry is when I go through last semester's paper, my brain is blank. The fear starts ever since. Money cap is another worrying one. Gotta remember all the concepts and how to calculate >.< Just need more time to remember all and stuff..

Tonight gonna stay up late to finish off law notes (hopefully can stand it). Then, I can continue to study money cap and also read through all law past year. If my mission success, I will be more calm and more prepared for the 2 papers. Sometimes I need motivation. What can I do to motivate myself??? Hmmmm....I want to eat desserts or ice cream muahahaha xD

Lets see how's my progress!!! Ice cream and desserts, my aim now =P



Dinner time!! Later, back to study! All the best to Monash-ians!!!

With the tips and hints from the lecturers,

I feel safe and not so stress about exam,

However, there're still nervous and worries around, not so prepared yet!

Exam is just 4 more days to go,

And the war will be starting once again =S

Wish this semester's exam will be good,

Wish this semester's results will be better than last semester!

Need to prepare well,

Need to stay healthy and good mood,

Need to be calm and fresh,

Then I guess I will feel good =)

Hope for the best now!

God Bless! Wish everyone and myself all the best! ^_^

Have been thinking the whole night,

Why I have been thinking so much these few days,

No results...

Anyway, really have to put aside everything,

And focus in exam which is in 8 days time..

Focus, focus, focus...

No more thinking negative and any unnecessary things already!!

Gambatte! =) Good luck to everyone and myself!

Exam countdown-ing 9 days,

Am I well prepared yet?

No, I am not..

Feel so nervous and worry about this and that,

The only thing I can do is keep studying and understand the facts,

But my brain cannot absorb huh =S

Cousin bro said eat omega to improve brain memory wo,

But where to get? Eat more fishes? Vitamins?

I know if I study, understand the concept and remember them,

It's not a problem I guess,

But I have no confidence in myself,

Why? Why? Why? I wonder...

No motivation,

If someone can be by my side now,

I think I will feel much better!

Final exam is getting nearer and nearer..

Yet I'm still not well prepared yet,

In fact, just started to do revision not long ago..

Hopefully I can revise all in time,

So not so stress, tension and nervous,

And I know what am I doing..

Well, moods are getting a bit stable already,

But sometimes will still the same, controllable..

It's gonna be exam fever for the next few weeks,

And missing you also..

I have nothing to say more,

But just have a patient and trust heart!

Not going to think more than that,

Just focus what I should focus on now!

Okay la, gotta head off to sleep already,

Goodnight and have sweet dreams =)

Days are getting down and saddening,

Thanks for people who care for me!

I appreciate it =)

Well, I have to be strong to face anything,

There're many challenges out there,

Need to learn how to stand firm and stay strong..

I know I have not been confidence in everything,

So now I have to build confidence on myself..

Be positive and take things easy, not to stress..

Knowing final is in 2 weeks time,

Need to work hard on it,

Must be prepared for every subjects..

Put exam at the first place,

Others just put aside,

After final only back to resolution time hmm..

That's what I can do now I guess...

Gotta head off to sleep, goodnight! =)

Hope everyone has a good week ahead, including myself! God Bless!

Miss you......

You know how much I miss you?

I just wanna see you a day or just a call from you,

That will shine my day,

That will give me a click...

When I think about you,

I really feel like crying,

Because I miss you so much........