Happy-Go-Lucky

Back again...!

2010-10-22T00:11:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time since I last blogged. Well, it is because of busying with studies and lost my feeling towards blogging...Mostly no time to blog lol =) but I'm back now!

Exam is around the corner which is the week after next..Am I prepared? Answer is NO!!! Not even a subject, I have done with revision. Can consider slacking and slow...I just wanna score well from this semester onwards. Good result = good future!! No more bad result and I think I should change my study method next year, or not, I will still the same me lol =)

Time passed really fast. Tomorrow will be my last day of classes for this semester, which means my second year done and it's approaching 3rd year (final year). I still thinking that I just came into study but I'm graduating for another 2 semesters. It's time to plan for my future in real, maybe after this coming exam. No more about the past, forget about it. It was a burden for me, where I know clearly know that =_="

Arghhh, the thing I hate is I can't concentrate while I wanna study for exam!!! Well, anyhow or whatever things, I will have to stay focus and be serious with it..Laziness no more pleaseee....!!!! がんばってください~~

Alright, will not blog till exam ends..And promise after exam, there'll be more bloggings =P with photos, since going for travel!! Can't wait!!! =)

Hereby, wish everyone who are taking exam, all the best and good luck!!!加油!!! Goodnight ♥

Hmmmm......

2010-07-07T21:21:00.006+08:00

Congratulation to Netherlands!!! Didn't sleep the whole night until the match over..At first, the match was so confusing and don't really know what were the players playing. But it was a great match. I was shouting all the way and my mum said I'm so noisy hahaha..Just a bit of excited when Netherlands almost scored goals..One of the player, if not mistaken, player no. 14, his nose and front teeth were kicked by the Uruguay no. 22 player..He bleed a lot, he has the sportman spirit where he still keen to play for the 1st half match =) Rest well, and play well in the final!!!

Another great match tonight, Germany vs Spain ^^ Gonna stay up for the match again.. Both team are good and wish for the best! Me of course support Germany hehehe =) Hopefully Germany got the chance to play in final..

I don't know whether am I thinking too much or what. I just can't stop myself thinking and stay calm. I just wish to meet you and talk to you. I don't know what happened suddenly and out of sudden become like that. I have thought about it many times. Most of the time I think is my fault. My demands, my negative thoughts, my words and the way I am are not right which make you feel that I have changed to another person who not what I am as last time. Can you give me a chance to talk to you..I really know my fault now, give me one more chance..You know I doesn't mean that, pleaseee...I miss you very much do you know? ="( Just one more chance!

Back to Bloggie...

2010-07-06T23:30:00.007+08:00

It's been a while I have blogged again. So sorry for not updating as I have no feeling to write and was busying with my exam.

Well, there were many things happened for the past 1 month. First of all, talk about my examination. Before the exam, I am half confident and half worried because some of the topics I don't really understand. With the help of yoke fen, I somehow just got a click about the part of questions that I confused with. Thank you =) During the 3 weeks of preparation + examination, someone has actually motivated me along although it was just a simple one. I feel happy, comfortable and motivated me to study hard for exam.

For the first paper (Cost Info), it can said that I was well prepared compared to the other 3 units but out of no where the final paper is so so so much harder than past years and what we expected. When I was attempting the paper, I was once wanna give up but of course I not dare to because no try sure failed, you try there's a chance you might got it right and if you do, sure there is some pity marks. So I just hope that I will passed this unit =.= *finger crossed*

For the second paper (AIS), MCQ part was alright but not the practical questions especially modelling part..I guess I was too nervous over the paper. Go on, the third paper (Money Cap), it was quite okay for me and only some part I forgot the points but overall good ^^ And the last paper (Company Reporting), hmmmm it was okay also, only 1 of the questions, I didn't read it beforehand and I only able to remember some..but overall not bad too..

Semester result will be out on the next Friday but it is always come out on the day before (evening), I hope and wish my result is good~!!!! God Bless me!!!

About what had happened and what am I feel blank and lost the way, I really don't know what to say and don't feel like to share it now..I will just see how it goes..New semester is going to start again, what's my feeling? Hmm I have no idea at all, no feel, no nothing, don't know..Haiz..Well, another week to see what I can do perhaps..For now, just do whatever I can..

Everyone is heading to bed now because they wanna catch the football match (Uruguay vs Netherland) later at 2.30am..I am still thinking whether to join them..If I want, I need to sleep now and wake up later..But I am still so awake now >"< LOL...Lets see how..Which team will win?? I guess Netherlands has got the chance but need to see their performance =)

A week before final exam for the semester...

2010-05-31T11:26:00.004+08:00

Woke up in the early morning because supposed to meet up with someone. Starting off with some reading on cost info subject while waiting a message to come..After a while, proceed to send emails to lecturers and read on company reporting online. Well, today's meeting up is cancelled, a bit of disappointment. It's okay..

My examination time table is as follow:
11 June 2010 - Cost Information for Decision Making
14 June 2010 - Accounting for Information System and Financial Modelling
18 June 2010 - Money and Capital Markets
21 June 2010 - Company Reporting
22 June 2010 - 18 July 2010 = HOLIDAYS!!!! =)

The days after assignments ended, the level of productivity is really totally out, not as usual. I have no idea what happened. I have talked to friends around me, they are the same as well. I wondered why hmmm....I think I have lack of motivation this time, although I have the strong mind that I wanna score well this semester!

I know part of the motivation is always come from someone but till now I don't have anything yet. Just hope someone can motivates me in a way. Also, I have to stary strong to fight with the lazy worms in my body. After all, only 1 week + for exam, one blink that's over. So have to work hard for the exam, then I can enjoy my birthday celebrations and go for relaxations (my plans!!!) ^^

Hereby, wish myself and everyone who are taking examination starting next week, GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST!!! =D

A moody day...

2010-05-21T21:03:00.002+08:00

Well, it's been a long time I have blogged..And now, countdown 3 weeks to final for this semester. Time passed so fast! One blinked, half a year gone =S

How am I so far? Not too good and not too bad. About studies, I think I'm still okay with it. Today handed in last assignment for the semester and another last online quiz due next week. It's time to marry to the books and wish to get good scores this semester, cannot afford to have any low marks anymore. It's not going to be a fun thing.Just hope for the best and try my best.

Don't know why I'm not in a very good mood these days. I feel like I'm hating myself and whatever I do are bad and wrong..I really wondering what happened??!! I put my eyes to see and my heart to feel people beside me, well one of my friend is so emo about everything she faced, I don't comment much as I can't even handling myself well yet. Some are so good, because they have someone to accompany them when they are down, sick, sad, depressed, happy, excited and everything. And of course, can share out with parents but when you have someone in heart, you're just hoping him/her to be the one you can share with as well because he/she is one of the important one besides parents.

I have no idea why..Maybe because I'm too sensitive or whatever. I just feel unsafe and don't what sort of feelings I have now. A simple thing that I already mentioned many times, I'm tired to keep on mention. I have tried to ignore my down feeling, I wanna find someone to share my feeling out. But it seems no one =( I can only keep to myself. I can only force myself to do more work to keep myself busy that's all..

I still have parents' care of course and from friends as well but not you! Seriously, I don't know what to say anymore..I really hope my wish that I expected so long will come through soon..I'm scared, confused, etc...

Well, don't wanna make my blog so emo again. I just wanna express out my feeling here today, I feel a bit better now..I wish everyone who are having exam soon, a Happy Studying ^^ がんばってください!!! ciaoz...

Long time...

2010-05-02T19:15:00.003+08:00

Sorry for being so long not updating my bloggie =)
Have been busy and lotsa things to settle!
I will be back here to share my moments with you in another few weeks time perhaps!

Stay tuned! ^^ Have a nice may month!!

Days during summer~

2010-02-27T22:44:00.003+08:00

Right after my last semester's exam , I already started my internship for 3 months. Say long not long, say short not short. It was a great internship, I met quite a number of new friends aka colleagues. They are friendly and willing to help each other. The thursday was my last day of internship. Yeah I'm wishing to end it fast because I miss all my friends a lot but on the other hand, I don't wish to leave because I get used to work there LOL, contradicting =)

Remember when I was young, I used to wish myself to grow faster because study is torturing and thought working is fun. After I have started to work as in training especially this time, I realised that study is more fun. We should enjoy our study life as much as we can before step into working life seriously. Once you are involve in working life, it won't be an easy life anymore. You know why? Because you gotta work hard to cover up all your expenses, you gotta handle all things yourself everyday and etc.. This is life, we can't escape but to overcome and get everything done in our own ways ^^

Another day more, new semester starts again! Didn't know I'm in my 2nd year of degree and gonna graduate end of next year. Sounds time passed a bit fast and one year older already, no more teen for me =S After knowing my university has introduce new method of conducting classes and new syllabus, I'm actually got a fear and nervous =.=" however, there are challenges that I gotta face it and it's my future, so I will have to work hard =D I hope I can do better this semester and the remaining ones lol!

I have many thoughts and feelings in my heart but I don't know how to express, guess will share it in the next post! It's time to go sleep as tomorrow need to pray and cleaning up my place! Stay tuned ^^

Lastly, I wish all of you,

Little 1st Post in 2010!

2010-02-08T17:08:00.003+08:00

Everyone is asking why am I not updating my blog for so long.....

It's been a while I didn't blog because I have been busy with my internship, summmer course and personal thing =)

No worries, I'm coming back! Will have a new look for my blog and start to have nice posts for you I suppose ^^

New songs on my small little ipod, background picture and new photos, etc...

I gotta go now, need to rest! Didn't sleep the whole night and gotta work out later for something =)

Thoughts......

2009-11-25T16:57:00.003+08:00

Will be starting internship again around next week, yet I have not buy any attires for myself yet. Well, I am or in fact always looking forward to work for this company but somehow I think I am over-stress and worry this and that. I know I am a person who think a lot lol, no doubt..No matter how, I have to get myself office wears and stuff I needed for working by weekend >.<"

A new week started with happy or unhappy?? I really don't know..Life is still like that. Yeah holidays supposed to be fun and happy, enjoy and crazy around.. Haha but for me, I don't feel any especially this summer holidays.

I did nothing and I have no strength to do what I want because I think I have lost myself somehow. During holidays, I helped my friends a lot with their problems and god bless they will be alright. You guys will get it done soon yea, don't worry!

Just a short 1 1/2 week of listening to people's doubts and my own self, I realise life really getting harder because you don't know when it's true or when it's wrong; Will they appreciate or just ignore and think you're just a say..Reality?? Haiz I really don't know..I am not emo but just a thought where I faced right now.

助人为乐,不求任何回报..但是有时侯帮了人,又尽全力去帮了,他又这样的对我..难道我从开始就错了?? Not to say I am sad or what, just that whenever this happen to me, I feel no good. But seeing it, if I don't do, I feel uncomfortable..So miserable!!

1st week of Summer Vacation~

2009-11-21T20:32:00.002+08:00

Well, the vacation started with no exciting because everyone was still having exam and some went back to hometown right after exam. I started to work on monday. I feel so tired and hard while starting so fast and I know nothing lol.

As I have planned to travel lots of place, but all also can't work at the end because friends don't want to go and family also like very lazy, bla bla bla..Haiz..Once working, I went to work early of the morning and came back for dinner, rest a while, sleep already..Not enough time lor..

However, even I have more time for myself, I feel bored and waste time because I have nothing to do. Facebook has get me into bored as I don't play game; Everyday MSN also getting bored because no one chat with and also waiting friends to online and chat haiz..Why so dull during holidays?? =(

I want to go shopping to buy new things for myself! I want to go for movies as there're a few more new ones coming up! I want to karaoke, I miss singing!!! Long time didn't play sport de, feel like go once and sweat it all out =)

I have got one thing wanna do hahaha..Guess what?? I think I have gained weight just one week holidays, erm in fact started from before exam, because I eat a lot to release stress LOL..So, I need to do more exercise and diet a bit..Want a nice body shape and look nice kekeke~~Somemore got a lot of pimples and marks on my face >.<" I need to cure it =.= So, decided to do more exercise, eat healthy & organic food and self-treatment on my face wahahahaha...

Just feel not comfortable everyday. I want someone beside me, comfort me, let me manja and talk to me =( But I know it won't happen so soon lar...

Now, 9+pm only, I'm still so bored haiz..Sometimes feel that having assignments are good in fact, because they occupied your time and you can learn more knowledge..When you have a lot assignments, you wish to have holidays..LOL so contradict man!

The 1st dull and boring vacation is going to end! Hope there're fun and joy in the coming week =)Coming week dates as follow:

- Teach my friend to do handcraft
- Date with yoke fen, twins and foong yee (my secondary bestie!)
- Shop for new attires for working
- and....(nothing yet hmmm..)

Words......

2009-11-15T22:35:00.004+08:00

Have not been blogging about a week plus, because of final exam!

Overall for this semester's exam was okay. For Marketing, it was a great paper I ever had but the thing is we need more time to do lor. It is too many to write but time constraint. For Business Law, well, the paper is interesting but somehow some part is really hard to apply the facts there but overall still okay. For Money Cap, it was a great paper too. I love the objectives questions, why?? Because most of it are from the mcq she gave, as for short questions, still okay, just that my brain go sesak, suddenly can forgot what to write >.<" Lastly, accounting paper was great although some part I don't really know how to do but overall good. I think I forgot to put in 2 accounts into the income statement..Stupid me =S

Expectation for the result:
~Marketing: HD
~Business Law: Credit or Distinction
~Money Cap: Distinction
~Accounting: Distinction or HD

Went to watch "2012" with Joeanne, Jason and Kenny yesterday afternoon. I was late to cinema ooaps! My apologise! Kena fine by Jason =P Just kidding haha^^ Well, it was an awesome movie. It is a movie talking about the world.

Sitting in the cinema for more than 2 hours, watching this movie, I started to worry about the world. I am scared the world will become like that one day seriously. I scared to lose my family, my beloved friends and everything that I care of. It makes me think negatively but in the sense of giving me a hint that I should grab the chances that I have in front of my eyes, I should do whatever things that I want, help the people who need helps and lots lots more. Life is about how to you processed it with your capability. Within the movie time, it reminds me how I planned for the journey where I wanted to be with him from now and to the future but it had all become rubbish because he left.

To you, my baby:

I don't know what had gone wrong in between as you don't even wanna to talk about it nicely and just think that everything is correct from what the rumors said. But do you know the real thing and how I suffered? I doubt you know. You have being cold to me for weeks, I started to worry that you will left me because I started to love you more as I gained my confidence by having your love to me. You show me your love, your care, me in your heart. You touches my heart and healed my depression, melt off my sadness and grown all happiness. But why you can suddenly to become like that??!! I understand that you still missed your past, so do I..I didn't blame you, force you, pressure you, fight with you, slap you or scold you because you still think about her. You know why? Because I love you!

I know to love someone, when comes to let go, it isn't an easy thing to do. If it's easy to let go means you are don't love enough or you totally don't love. I believe this is very true. When we started, we have agreed to comfort each other when think about the past. Yes, we did it! And I can see that you don't like me to keep in touch with my past because you know he will hurt me and so you show me how important of me in your heart.

Because of you, I changed myself to be a better person for you! I know your hobby-fishing, I have made up my mind to learn fishing so that I have in common with you although I know it's not what I like. Because of you, I have indulge myself into songs that you loved and songs that can represent what our heart wanna say. I really interpreted each and every songs that you loved. Because of you, I have became even more ambitious than previous because I can imagine or in fact can see how our future will be..I wanna study hard and get a good job. Also, study hard in order to help you in your business. I wanna be your best angel!I wanna be the one who can help you in any way and be the one you need for every moment! I always give you 10001% moral support for your working because I know you care how people think about you although you told me you are not.

Because of you, I willing to suffered your ignorant although I had once thought of giving up in this relationship but I believe that we are still love each other. I also know that you are suffering of thinking your past and having insomnia. I have done lots of research to see what I can do to solve your problem. I don't wanna see you everyday with the stress body to work! Besides that, I wanna help you to cure or at least reduced your sinus after I'm done with my exam. Moreover, I know you are a homey boy. You said you want me to cook for you. I have decided to learn cooking from my mum and buy cooking books to learn. I remember I owe you cookies as well.. Because I know you are too stress over work and thinking of the past, I have planned few trips to go with you so that I can spend more time with you and show my love to you. I know at the start, I was too busy with my club and socities work and so because of you, I willing to cut down my activities and balance up my time.

Everything I do and I planned to do, all are just for you, my baby! Do you know it?? The last conversation that we had, the way you talked to me, it was so hurt ='( You kept bomb me about what you heard from someone and put all anger to me. But I really don't know what happened and I seriously have no idea about it at all! And don't even wanna talked about it nicely and let me know what happened and just gone like that. Do you know how hurt it is and how depressed am I? I wondered who is the "someone".

I can't do anything now because I don't know how and I know you won't even give a damn to listen it. I have a great plan for your birthday but now you have destroyed it..I wanted to have a nice talk with you and wanna know what exactly happened. I don't mind we are not getting back together for the moment but just to know what makes you become like that??!! I still concerned about you! Do you know, everytime I passed by, walked by and looked at the place we went, listened to the songs we listened together, the songs you sent to me, I just can't stop myself from crying.

After all these happened, even I know I need someone especially you to be by my side, however, I lost my direction, I lost my sense, I lost my thoughts T.T I'm not dare to get into a relationship anymore. I'm sorry to reject those who asked me for relationship! I still love him and I have no more confidence in relationship =(

The last words that I wanna say to you now: I love you, baby!

Will continue tomorrow! It's the time to sleep, I have to work tomorrow..Wish me all the best for my new job =) Hope it goes well! Goodnight ^^

2009-11-02T16:28:00.004+08:00

How am I going to remember all the points huh?? I'm trying hard to study money cap and concentrate with it but seems I keep worry about am I able to answer during exam >"<

Thanks for people who keep motivating me and give me support! I guess tonight no matter what, I really need to finish up the chapters. The papers are getting nearer, really cannot slack anymore..Wanna score well for law definitely as my assignment is just barely passed, as well as for money cap, I want to score distinction at least =S

Give me more strength and good brain cells pleaseeeee......!!!!!! Stay awake and study....FOCUSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!

A few words for you......

2009-11-01T11:32:00.006+08:00

Thinking and talked a friend about what had happened recently yesterday night. I don't know what causes it to fade off. Yeah, when we started it's my fault not to put in so much love because I have got the fear-the pain in my heart. You're the one show me your love and cares which slowly bring me in and I started to love you more. Then, you just went off like that.

Yeah, we just started not that long and why am I so loving you. I wondered why when I have no confidence, people give me confidence; when I have confidence, people break it. My heart has been broke for more than thousand times. I know it's a bit arbitrage but my heart will never heal well after breaks..

Because of you, I have think far about us. My parents said they can't afford me to study in australia but will do something to let me go, I choose not to go because of you. I know how hurt you have in your previous, that's why I'm trying to do my best for you. How you feel in the past, I have exactly feeling as you. But I don't think you know right? Haiz..No comments! I have many plans ahead for you..But you just don't give me a chance to tell you and just be as silence like that.

I really didn't know how would the sweet start and gone to questionable ending. I really don't know why it becomes like that. I always the last one to know what happen in between. It's okay. I know and I can see we will not have any further steps to go together anymore although I love you. Anyhow, I know I gotta put you down and wishes you all the best for your future in terms of career and love.

I'm not doubting that you're not a loyal person (don't know how to explain). If there's a girl that you think you're able to hold her, I can only wish you good luck. I will just be a concern friend for you. Because no matter what I wanna do for you, I guess it's nothing worth to you somehow so I choose to let you go. As you trust and listen to rumours more than me, so I have nothing to comment because like what the oldies said "if you didn't do wrong, just keep quiet, the person will know one day". I believe in this phrase. No trust and understand in a relationship will not last long, so yeah I choose to walk off from the relationship as in the pain and hurts. "The old don't go, how will the new one come by?", another oldies phrase =)

Love is so much complicated, sometimes really hard to handle it. I should have a new way of life. Take all the past as experience. I wish I have good results in my exam and work well for my internship later. I want a happy life and would want to have a change of myself. Also, I wish to have a boyfriend who loves me more, care for me from now and then and be by my side when I need him.

11th month of the year has arrived. The past 10 months I have gone through, it's a real hardship for me. I have become a wiser and mature girl. I have learned lots of things. I thank to people who aid throughout my hardship. Specially thanks to Jason and Joeanne, being my guidance! Appreciate you guys =) 2 more months and a brand new year will be coming, I really wish everything I do will go smoothly and what I want and wish to have can come by. God bless me! Without God, family and my beloved friends, I guess I'm gone from here. A big thanks to all!!

Time to catch up with my revision again! ^^ Peace..

2009-10-31T18:25:00.003+08:00

Marketing was a fine paper for me. If the paper is 3 hours, I will definitely do better for it. However, over is over, hopefully can get a HD for it =)

Next, I will be having Business Law, Money and Capital and lastly, accounting! Business law is driving me crazy these few days. I don't really know how to do my notes as in how to arrange it. The main worry is when I go through last semester's paper, my brain is blank. The fear starts ever since. Money cap is another worrying one. Gotta remember all the concepts and how to calculate >.< Just need more time to remember all and stuff..

Tonight gonna stay up late to finish off law notes (hopefully can stand it). Then, I can continue to study money cap and also read through all law past year. If my mission success, I will be more calm and more prepared for the 2 papers. Sometimes I need motivation. What can I do to motivate myself??? Hmmmm....I want to eat desserts or ice cream muahahaha xD

Lets see how's my progress!!! Ice cream and desserts, my aim now =P

Dinner time!! Later, back to study! All the best to Monash-ians!!!

2009-10-25T18:08:00.002+08:00

With the tips and hints from the lecturers,

I feel safe and not so stress about exam,

However, there're still nervous and worries around, not so prepared yet!

Exam is just 4 more days to go,

And the war will be starting once again =S

Wish this semester's exam will be good,

Wish this semester's results will be better than last semester!

Need to prepare well,

Need to stay healthy and good mood,

Need to be calm and fresh,

Then I guess I will feel good =)

Hope for the best now!

God Bless! Wish everyone and myself all the best! ^_^

2009-10-21T08:49:00.000+08:00

Have been thinking the whole night,

Why I have been thinking so much these few days,

No results...

Anyway, really have to put aside everything,

And focus in exam which is in 8 days time..

Focus, focus, focus...

No more thinking negative and any unnecessary things already!!

Gambatte! =) Good luck to everyone and myself!

2009-10-20T10:53:00.003+08:00

Exam countdown-ing 9 days,

Am I well prepared yet?

No, I am not..

Feel so nervous and worry about this and that,

The only thing I can do is keep studying and understand the facts,

But my brain cannot absorb huh =S

Cousin bro said eat omega to improve brain memory wo,

But where to get? Eat more fishes? Vitamins?

I know if I study, understand the concept and remember them,

It's not a problem I guess,

But I have no confidence in myself,

Why? Why? Why? I wonder...

No motivation,

If someone can be by my side now,

I think I will feel much better!

2009-10-15T00:52:00.003+08:00

Final exam is getting nearer and nearer..

Yet I'm still not well prepared yet,

In fact, just started to do revision not long ago..

Hopefully I can revise all in time,

So not so stress, tension and nervous,

And I know what am I doing..

Well, moods are getting a bit stable already,

But sometimes will still the same, controllable..

It's gonna be exam fever for the next few weeks,

And missing you also..

I have nothing to say more,

But just have a patient and trust heart!

Not going to think more than that,

Just focus what I should focus on now!

Okay la, gotta head off to sleep already,

Goodnight and have sweet dreams =)

2009-10-12T02:35:00.004+08:00

Days are getting down and saddening,

Thanks for people who care for me!

I appreciate it =)

Well, I have to be strong to face anything,

There're many challenges out there,

Need to learn how to stand firm and stay strong..

I know I have not been confidence in everything,

So now I have to build confidence on myself..

Be positive and take things easy, not to stress..

Knowing final is in 2 weeks time,

Need to work hard on it,

Must be prepared for every subjects..

Put exam at the first place,

Others just put aside,

After final only back to resolution time hmm..

That's what I can do now I guess...

Gotta head off to sleep, goodnight! =)

Hope everyone has a good week ahead, including myself! God Bless!

Miss you......

2009-10-08T21:49:00.003+08:00

You know how much I miss you?

I just wanna see you a day or just a call from you,

That will shine my day,

That will give me a click...

When I think about you,

I really feel like crying,

Because I miss you so much........

2009-10-07T23:22:00.003+08:00

Days without you here,

I miss you so much,

I find myself lost somewhere...

You're my motivator,

No matter you're in happiness or sorrow...

I need motivation badly now,

Which is you, my baby!!

Below is a true feeling from bottom of my heart to you, my baby!

*********************************************************************

~~Trust You ~~

I love you
I trust you
I want you to share your loneliness with me

Light or darkness
Sorrow or joy
I want to protect your everything

Even if you've lost your way
I'll be right beside you
The two of us can trust each other
So don't let go

(Extracted from Trust You - Yuna Ito ; Edited by JackASS; Quote from JackASS)

2009-10-01T01:50:00.004+08:00

Tuesday: Went to Educate09 held in my university. Well, it was a great one although we always think talks are bored lol..Speakers are Dr Andrew and Dr Matthew from Monash University of Australia and Dr Joanna from our campus. Some sort of study skills talk was given by them, interesting and fun though! We have puzzle guessing, Q&A, and some discussion around..People's responds are quite true and make us laugh LOL...

Wednesday: Planned earlier that going for a movie with faustina but then we have no mood and so stress with assignment and stuff >"< I slept alot because I was having bad headache due to drink too much coffee, made me awake and I couldn't sleep well huh. Also, I have got lots of things to think..I know I have to be strong towards everything la..My mind full of "What can I do?"..No one can answer me, even myself!

Past experience seriously creates a big fear to me and you. We have different experience back there but it comes to an end that the feelings we faced are the same. Sad, miss, think and feel no one can replace what you had in the past. Yeah, I agreed of course but life has to move on and I understand it's not easy though. These few days, I have been thinking and understand what I should do to build confidence in you for being in a new relationship and for myself too. I'm looking forward to see this to be in improving process.

I know I am still conservative and it's time to change myself even more. People still see me not independent and overprotected somewhat huh..Okay, maybe I am..That's why people think I'm still think like a small kid =.=" I have many thoughts in my heart and mind,just that I don't know how to express out!

I really think we can go far, it's just that we both still need one more step and I guess we are on. For me, I should be a better person for you. I know what I should get myself improved and wanna let you know for all these I changed not just for myself only but more for you, baby! You're my only one, my precious one! I will do whatever things I can to help you to get back the feel you had in the past and of course new ones ^_^ I'm serious, not kidding..

For now, I will have to concentrate with my final and you have to concentrate with your work. I know you'll be busy, either me. Because I study for future, you work for future. Nothing to be neglected! I hope for the best for both of us. Once I done with my final, I will fully concentrate on you and working as well.

God bless us and the world! Tsunami coming again! Can feel shaking, be aware..Hope everyone around the world are safe and peace!

2009-09-28T23:25:00.003+08:00

I told myself to stop all negative thinking but then once I listen, see and read about sweet topics, it reminds me back to why wanna make myself to keep away from thinking negatively. I'm not sure ever since when I start to love to think negatively. It's so distracting and miserable. It weaken my soul, weaken my heartbeat, weaken my thoughts....Huh...

I had got an additional insight of what do you mean by "attached" that you used to tell me last time..I know just a month of together, I can feel the attached already..Knowing you are busy with your work, I didn't wanna disturb you because working is important and earning money is our target of life..

I admit that I might be too sticky..I know I being strange to you at the very beginning because I fear, but you given me confidence! I started to in love with you, I really have lots of things in mind for rest of our journey. I willing to learn things that I don't know. Seeing you so hardworking to work, you're indirectly hinting me that you want a better life in future, I know that!

Knowing you are going to vacation for the whole week, so planning to call or text you to say enjoy and take care but I not dare to because I scared you're busy..Just waiting for you to do so..Telling myself to leave myself and you alone because I might be annoying sometimes (don't mind talk bad about myself) so that you won't have distractions and I can follow my schedule..But I really miss you, baby!

I have lost my words in mind now..! >"<

Just to say out: I miss you, I love you more that I can say, baby! =( Hope you get it! Take care in krabi and don't busy with your work without having good sleeps and skip meals okay?..

Mooncake Festival!

2009-09-26T22:01:00.007+08:00

每年一度的中秋节即将来临了,
这季节又代表了什么?
每户人家都聚在一起,
望着圆圆的月亮,
吃月饼,
喝中国茶,
大人聊聊天,
小孩们一起提灯笼和玩游戏,
这都给咱们一股家庭温暖的感觉.

传统的月饼是巧克力色的,
但今日的月饼已是五颜六色了.
这是述说着我们的生活都是七彩缤纷吗?
不管我们身在何方,
喜怒哀乐是不可能逃避的.
此外,月饼也能把你心里的痛和烦恼,
带出苦,带进甜,
把开心都给你.

挂在半空中的灯笼带给了我们希望,
灯笼就像我们与神之间的秘涵.
祝家人平平安安,
国泰民安,
做每一件事都顺顺利利...

中秋节快乐!!!!

2009-09-24T22:52:00.003+08:00

FINALLY, marketing assignment is finished! I don't know what I did whether is correct or wrong..Couldn't bother so much already because not enough time + I have tried till the maximum to find information >.<" However, I satisfied with my work =)

I don't feel like doing anything tonight as I'm so tired and wanna have a nice and early sleep..I left one last assignment for this semester to complete which is accounting..Knowing it'll be harder than last assignment, so I'll probably study the question now and start doing it, maybe the day after tomorrow as my friend borrowed my MYOB guide book =S

In order for me not to get bored during the 1 week break, am going to PAWS trip, education seminar, WALKATHON and of course not to forget my assignment la ^^ People out there, if you have nothing to do on 4th of October, please come and join WALKATHON! Come and walk for the Green =) It's only RM15 and you can get a T-shirt, goodies and etc haha..!

Monash ball is tomorrow! Well, I'm excited yet feel unprepared lol..Don't know why..Feel a bit awkward though..Anyway, I will try my best to enjoy it fully la..Can eat yummy food and enjoy the atmosphere of the ball =D LOL!

Final exam is around the corner..Really have to get the head start by this weekend lol..Wanna bring up my cgpa and get good results so that I don't need to struggle for life after graduate..Need motivation to start to do revision seriously..Lately, not so in a good mood though, trying to be cheerful lol..

Knowing that I lose 59 ballots to my opponent for the musa election, don't know what's my feeling but then it was not a big gap of difference from her ballots, so I don't feel embarrased lol..Anyway, it's a good try! I would try harder next time if I decide to go champaigning again for the next fiscal year =) Gotta see the workload lo..For now and next year, I wanna concentrate in my studies, my baby, my family, leo club and musa subcommitte =D

2009-09-23T20:38:00.002+08:00

Have been busy doing marketing assignment during the raya holidays, yet it's not fully done and finalised >"< 1000 words is not enough for this piece. Because of the word limit, I gotta keep control the word count and what should I write =S No matter how, I really need to finish it by tonight because the due date for this assignment is tomorrow lol.

If I'm able to finish by tonight, then I will not need to struggle so much and can enjoy shopping for my ball preparation =)

Yesterday, I finally bought myself a teal dress, though I wanted a purple one. LOL. But the seller messaged me that the purple is available now haha..I'm still thinking whether want to buy or not as the price of the dress is cheap =) hmmmm...

I still need a pair of colour contact lens and earrings..I think I have high heel shoes but gotta find it lol..If don't have, I will borrow from my auntie ba ^^

For the past few days, I really have gone into recession..Why? Haiz...Anyway, trust and understanding should be there for you..So, I wouldn't want to think so much..I'm almost get mad of it >.<" Hope you're fine over there! God Bless!!

Back to marketing assignment!!! ciaozz...

2009-09-18T21:11:00.002+08:00

In a game, there must have a winner and loser,

No matter you're the winner or loser,

We're still part of the group =)

Here to congratulation to my friends who won for the positions,

Also, don't be sad for those friends who lost including me >"<

Well, yeah it's a waste but I know well that my chances of getting is low,

Because my opponent is more famous than me, so no disappointment, etc..

Thanks to those who voted for me and those who did not vote for me =)

Knowing that I have lost the post,

However, I'm able to concentrate more in my studies and leo club,

Be part of the subcommittee also a good thing, not so stressed up!

Besides that, I can have more time for myself,

And it'll not be an obstacle for me to apply student exchange..

Overall, there're still benefits for me,

So no point to be upset over the result though =)

2009-09-16T23:55:00.003+08:00

Don't know why, have not been in a good mood the whole day. I'm still wondering why. Is there anything bothering me? I seriously don't know.

I'm trying to figure it out but I couldn't. Feel so suffered when you don't know why you feel sad and even if you know. Hmmm why life has to be like that?

I know that my crying are coming back but I take a hold. I don't want to cry because I know myself will get into emo easily and don't know what I will do next.

I know there're many people care for me and concern about me but I just can't make my way. No one will understand how I feel. I can't share with my family because I don't want them to worry and always think about me!

No good for them 24/7 worry about me. I'm already grown up, I want to be independent to solve my own problem..Somehow, I have lost my way. I don't know from where to build my confidence, from where I can start my path all over again..

It's hard for me to stay calm, maybe I feel life is still unsecure for me. Not to blame or say who, it's true, I realised I have changed alot from last time. Neither good nor bad?! Good, maybe I'm able to speak compared to last time; Bad, I become a fragile girl, lose confidence in life easily, easy to break down =(

Why I became like that? Why I can't just be like last time, no matter what hardships I faced, I can be strong and stand firm for it, but I can't for now??

Nothing happen to me, it's what I really feel it right now..! Share it here >.<

2009-09-16T19:56:00.002+08:00

To do list for the week :

- Marketing essay assignment

- Revision for all subjects

- Clean my study area

- Summary for business law

- Sign Language...

- Download songs =)

- Watch some movies and anime

- Find dress for monash ball

- Spend time with baby =P (Important!)

2009-09-13T23:20:00.002+08:00

Trust is important in a relationship :)

Understand each other also the same..

Without these, we can't go far..

Realising that I'm into you which is getting deeply,

Always thinking far with you in my mind,

I'm actually have plans to make our life interesting..

Yes, I might be still a small girl,

Lots of things to learn, do and experience,

But this is a process of life,

I will do my level best for you,

I wanna make specials for you,

Though you said you don't really like it..

Because of you,

What I wanna do,

What I wanna spend,

Are all special ones, my baby!

I wish we have more time to spend together,

I will always be there for you,

I will always the one who support you whatever things you do,

Because you're my baby, forever,

I will be the backbone of your life..

What I do and plan now,

It's all for you and our journey of life..

Baby, I miss you and I love you!!! =)

2009-09-11T22:57:00.002+08:00

Have not been a good one nor a bad one recently...

Thank you for coming into my life...

Though I have no confidence at first,

But I give a damn to start it,

I managed to control my depression, sadness and etc,

Although sometimes I really cannot..

Because of you,

My confidence starts to grow up again,

Sorry for the first time of being so strange to you,

But you know I didn't mean that,

I'm trying to overcome the past experience,

And I know you as well...

Because of you,

I really feel the love is coming back,

Just a little more time to warm it up...

Even we have just started a week plus,

I simply affirmed you that you're mine,

I just wanna tell out you're mine,

I just wanna spend more time with you,

I'm giving all my love to you,

I'm willing to change and do everything for you with my strength...

Loving you is important other than studies and family,

You're part of my life,

I just wanna go far with you...

Don't know why I'm really in love with you,

Very scared that I will lose you...

Seriously,

I really really hope that you're the one I should have meet...

Trust me that I can give you what you have in previous,

I do trust you you can give me what I had before and not....

Obviously, we do have our own path of love,

Do not repeat any past mistakes,

Move forward and appreciate what we have now,

I believe we can go further...

I love you...

2009-09-07T15:47:00.002+08:00

Stresss, stresss, stressss....

Why say so?

Many things to think about..!

I don't feel good everyday,

I just hope I can be unconscious a while,

So that I don't need to think,

I'm not sure why I have this feel for days,

Something wrong with me, I wonder..?!

Wake up in the morning just hope the days are bright,

But somehow I can't really feel it,

Anyone can tell why??

Something bothering me? I don't know seriously..

I would want to do something to make things go smoothly,

No repetition of mistakes,

Do better for the new one...

Why I just feel so miserable??

Why I have to think negatively always??

Am I too sensitive of things or what??!!

I really don't know what to do...

Crying can mean nothing,

But I can't control myself...

Save me, God!

I just want a simply life,

Happy, joyful, loving and peaceful!!!

2009-09-03T22:14:00.002+08:00

Days are getting tougher and miserable..

Just don't know why I'm back to the emo out of sudden lol..

Because of procrastination, busy-ness, boring days...?

Time passed so fast especially this semester,

I couldn't believe the semester already reached week 7,

Yet, I'm still very blur with my studies..

It's the time to catch up as there'll be another holiday on the coming Monday,

Hopefully, I'm able to revise whatever chapters that have been covered so far..

I used to think university life is easy and fun when I was young,

But I don't think so now,

It's so stress, hectic and many stuff to think and consider about..

As we grow older,

There'll be extra things to handle,

Well, it's a life cycle as what my friends said,

We can't escape from it but face it as challenges,

We have to learn from experiences, mistakes, failure and hardships,

Make sure we are doing the right thing and not the wrong thing...

God is testing us and bringing us to the right path of life,

We have to take the initiatives to work hard for our life,

After that,

If we success in everything although there're no perfection,

We will feel happy, joyful and good in our life,

God will be happy as well,

Hence, the world will be peace and healthy =D

2009-09-03T04:04:00.000+08:00

2009-09-01T02:50:00.001+08:00

Sleepyyyyyyy...LOL

2009-08-29T19:01:00.003+08:00

Have been busy for weeks...

Accounting assignment 1 and Law assignment are officially over..!

Money Capital and Makerting presentation are over too~~!

Accounting assignmnet 2, Money and Capital Market and Marketing assignment yet to come!

There'll be a few events coming up in September, so will be real busy though!

Movies that I wanted to watch before I'm getting into real real real busy hahaha are:
(1) I Love You, Beth Cooper
(2) Laughing Gor
(3) The Proposal
(4) Ghosts of Girlfriends Past
(5) 仁心解码

Will find time to watch all these! Study still the most important things to do :)

I want my this semester result better than last semester!

I will work hard for it!! :)

Cheers =P Dinner time!! hehehehe^^

2009-08-14T08:39:00.002+08:00

Another 30 minutes, I'll be having the one and only class today and only 1 hour!

Well, I'm quite sleepy today yet need to "crawl" to university..

I just realised that my to-do list for this weekend is extremely long compared to last few weeks >"<

As I'm participating in the 30 Hour Famine next weekend, so I have to be hardworking this weekend to complete both presentation slides and business law assignment by next friday night =/

Really have to start all revision and not leave to last minutes. It's gonna be tough for this semester so can't have any procrastination lol..I'm controlling and fighting with the lazy worms in my body =P

I want all distinction and above for this semester's result. If I'm able to get all HDs, obviously I will be very very happy. So, I will work hard for that and hope for it haha...Can I do that? I'm still wondering because I always trying to be lazy lol!

Okay, it's time to go to class! :D

2009-08-11T11:11:00.002+08:00

Good morning to everyone here!

I have afternoon classes every tuesday..

Just manage to edit my accounting assignment part a and done chart of accounts as well!

No matter what, I still love accounting assignments the most although I will get frust when I can balance it or find the correct answers.

Well, I was sad yesterday because I lost my law book :( The most expensive on haiz..Can't do anything. I was actually can't accept it when it's lost but now I have to buy it again because the assignment 1 is due after next week and there're a lot cases need to be read and remember..Haiz..What a sad day man!!!

Because I lost this book, I have to sacrifice my japanese class, which means I'm not going to learn so soon :( If I know who is the fella stole my book, I'll not let him/her go easily..Don't play play with me @@ You better watch out! HUH!!!

Well, I have to prepare myself to uni now! Ciaoz..Sorry for the morning emo!

2009-08-11T01:41:00.004+08:00

I want teddy bears collection!!!....

2009-08-04T23:45:00.002+08:00

Not feeling too well these two days, maybe because of the bad weather >.< Just feeling tired easily, wanna sleep all the time!

Just realized that I have tonnes of homework, assignments and work to do. It's gonna be a busy semester. Everytime wanna find a time to go out a while to relax but sure got problem lol. Anyhow there are some trips plan around: Malacca, Singapore, Penang, Taiwan, Shanghai..These few places that I planned to go lo, don't know which place to go yet >.<

I'm getting lazy to do my work, the lazy worms are still lazing around me, really need to get cured fast :) Especially business law, have to know many cases in order to do the assignments and exam, OMG!!!

Next, accounting assignment 1 and business law assignment will be due this month. Really have to get a head start now! During week 6, I will be having an assignment due and 2 presentations in a row..! STRESS & TENSION!!!!

Well, I really don't know what to say about him la..He talked to me few days then now no talk already..Also, he don't send that mail to me..Whatever it is, why I have to think so much about how he react to me?! It doesn't really matter anymore, I don't need to feel bad for it. Because what he did and do are all up to him, I can't controlled him though..Just let him do whatever he want. And if he think he is right, then just let it be. No comments on it!

Sleeping now to get this emo feeling away! Ciaoz...

2009-08-02T18:31:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not updating so long! Was messing around with my new semester and something else. My apologise!

Well, I still can't get used to the new semester, don't know what happen to me. Maybe I have more responsibilities, new target in studies and subjects take in this semester are way tougher than last semester as expected >.< Anyway, I have to get used to it as soon as possible because tomorrow already week 3 and assignments are pilling up, presentation......OMG!! I have to be hardworking instead, no more procrastinating, don't think about the stupid stuff that fellow anymore (waste time) and try to avoid the laziness :) The weather here is getting hotter and hotter, really irritating..I have to bath to refresh myself, or else I can't concentrate in my work =/

Sad stories not to mention anymore because I don't want to make myself and you guys to be emo as I realised that we people always emo which is not good for us lol..Well, I have finally give up with that fellow and wanna start a new life. I want happiness and good life, not to ruin it! So, as I know he will not give me what I want anymore and he is so ridiculous and sarcastic. Enough!

I found out that family and friends are most important other than the love. I wanna thanks to my cousin brother, steven who has given me lots of advice and analysed one by one to me! I really appreciate him. Without his words, I think I will not be okay until now. Well, I'm now only know that he want "s" than the heart, even wanna be his friends huh =.= You think I am what? Crazy la you!

Eventually planning to go malacca and visit cousin brother but my dad and auntie don't want so I have no choice, thought can have fun there! >.< It's okay, I will follow him when he is going back to malacca..Hopefully he is driving me there :P Then I have to remember the road so that I can travel down next time hehe^^ Malacca, here I come hahaha....

Will plan it again then! Maybe a penang trip to be added :) then it'll be during my semester break if he is free la...Finally, I found a relative as in cousin who is around my age and we can travel together. Because others all way elder than me, they're working, no same interest and etc...

Alright, have to make a move now! Going out for dinner and will back to my work later =/ will update more soon if my days are happening LOL..

2009-07-19T23:39:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling better today. Although he smsed me today, he sounds good to me and suddenly go into the keen situation so I wouldn't want to think more about it because if I think, I'm the one will get hurt so I just replied as I can and just let it be natural. I really feel so confused about the matter already so I don't want to put a lot hope but move all hopes to my studies.

Well, tomorrow will be my first day of semester 2. It'll be a brand new start. I have to be consistent in my studies and scored towards my aims. I will want to be a better person. I will remember to be happy. I will remember I cannot get influence by somebody. I will do as much things as I can to help those people in needs especially my loved ones. I will want to live in a happy and comfortable life.

Okay, it's time to sleep. I have morning class tomorrow! =) All the best to Monash-ians!

2009-07-18T22:12:00.003+08:00

Going through a bad night yesterday. There's someone who is really sickening and sturborn. I simply don't understand about this fellow. Not to mention his name. This guy will never understand people's feeling and situation as well as his ex-gf also the same, both of them. I feel the frust, miserable and don't know what to do. Don't want to talk about it. Keep on talk about it, then will be more emo.

I feel so stress at home somehow, you know why? Because first I can easily get into the depression mode, second my parents keep nagging me, third when I feel like going for relaxation with friends I can't. Well, I never can be happy at home when I wanna get over my depression and be happy because parents always scold me and nag me. They want me to help them to do work, ok can, I will of course. When I asked, they asked me wait for while, then I wait, after that scold I don't help them la, bla, bla, bla. Going out with friends always restricted, I don't know why, even just a while also can't. Why?? I don't go for parties, clubbing, pub, etc...So don't need to worry, I might just go yum cha or shopping or chit chat with buddies, that's all..

I just feel that this year I can't live happily why?? It seems every week sure got no happiness =( What a depressed and sad life I have right now..How can I walked out from this sad world?? Angels, please save me out!!! I feel so suffer in this situation. I prefer primary and high school life. It was more cheerful, happier, and etc...Sad also sad about result, not others..But now, have to handle so many things, not only studies..I understand that it's a growing stage, but why people can be happy and get one to love them and I'm the opposite?? Sighhh...

Faster back to study so that I have something to do to distract all these..I really can't take it..How I wish I have elder siblings, so that I can share all my sadness with them and got someone guide me =( Haizz....

Sorry for another depressing post again....

2009-07-16T22:56:00.002+08:00

Well, the july intake's orientation was okay and fun I guess. It's not as pack as mine because usually july intake is less people enrolled than february intake. Nothing much to talk about it as it doesn't really interesting. We brought the newbies for campus tour, it was a tiring one because we were running up and down, left and right of the whole campus.

On wednesday midnight, I started to check out my semester 2's time table. Unfortunately, they arranged me to have class on friday. So, I'm trying to change it but somehow I can't because I want the tutor and his/her other time slots are full and no one moved out, then I have to accept the time, no choice! Overall, my time table is okay. I have only one class on monday, thursday and friday; I have 4 hours straight classes on tuesday =/

Went to chee fei's mummy shop to have lunch and have a meeting for the cross stitch key chains. Done with the cross stitch last week and now gotta make into a key chain. Need more eye energy, hand energy and patients. Will finish all of them by this week if possible, don't want to drag it so long as next week already a new semester and need to do a lot of preparations (can't think of any yet)!!

My semester 1's result has released around 6pm just now! Okay, my result was okay, all pass and no fail. I got distinction for accounting and management, credit for business&economic stats and microeconomics. I really thought I got high distinction for my accounting >.< and distinction for business&economic stats and microeconomies. All my expectations were 'out' haiz, but at least better than those who got failed. I feel so sad for them. For my friends who scored all HDs and those who nearly got full HDs, congratulations, you guys did a great job. I think I'll need your help hahaha..No worries, maybe because I have too much of distractions, that's why I didn't score what I want..It's okay, I will try my best and work hard for this semester and get a better result =P

Okay, will not think about it anymore. It's all over and I can't do anything to make my result to be all HDs though. Just telling myself, I already tried my best so nothing to be sad because sometimes it's all depends on our luck. At least all pass and no fail, I'm lucky enough, so don't demand and blame myself so much. Just look forward, don't look back...We have to go through hardships and failures then we'll only success..Hope I won't feel bad now =/

Stop all the depressing and emo-ing words! Should start a brand new life and semester like what kelly said. SMILE =D New goals coming up soon!

2009-07-11T22:45:00.004+08:00

I'm having a very normal holidays. 1 month neither long nor short. I have done nothing much during this holiday. I went out with friends for A movie, meals and did some shopping. Was planning to go to work but those company don't hire people who just work for a month and parents don't let me to work as a promoter. So, I just sit at home and doing things simply. Boring, rotting, growing mushroom (quote from faustina), onlining, dreaming, sleeping and etc..

Went to buddy training yesterday. It was a nice and fun one but tired. I need to get 10 newbies and bring them for campus tour. I'm alone taking care of them, wow! Hard..! Because they're adults like me and not children lol..Can't do and say anything wrong, if not, I'll get trouble lol..Also, I came to know that there'll be having an orientation bash in august and it'll be PORT DICKSON AGAIN!!!! Hahahaha....On the other hand, the food provided was not good, it made me feel uncomfortable, stomach upset, headache till almost vomit. Suffer huh..

I just don't know why I kept having nightmares these few days..What happen??!! LOL..Hope it'll be fine la..I need a nice and sweet sleep lol..Because I will feel tired if I don't sleep well >.< Need to sleep more as I'm worried that I will have to sleep late once the semester starts due to assignments.

Have a nice chat with my cousin who is newly known as in long lost la..Well, we're studying the same course, just that different university. We talked a lot about university thingy and his life in KL and so on, couldn't remember. Forgive me being a forgetful person, because my brain go rust after doing nothing for a month >.< Just offer him a ride or companionship, if he wanna come down for shopping and stuff, my parents or I myself can help him out..I wish I can go out to relax also =P

Am planning to watch Obsessed and Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince..Waiting for my people to confirm with me lol..

Time to sleep, tired huh =)

2009-07-04T17:58:00.002+08:00

After being emo that day, I'm getting better these few days. I have few tasks need to be done before the new semester starts =)

I need to sew 15 snoopy's head to make as key chains for selling during CNS week. I have not been cross-stitching almost 4 years haha..My skill surely poor abit =P However, I enjoyed sewing haha..

Time passed fast, my semester 1's result will be out in 13 days, new semester will start in 16 days. Neither long nor short. I have to get prepared to start a new semester and hope for the best for my result. I want to do better in semester 2, get good results, gain more leadership skills and etc..Be a better person =) The most important things are good health as in do more exercise like gordon, be calm and relax when facing anything, be optimistic, balance my time, manage everything properly and so on.

Thanks to all my dear friends giving me supports, care and spirit while I'm depressing, sad and emo-ing. Without you guys, I think I can't stand up so fast, I appreciate that! THANK YOU =D

I left 1 more week to relax and holidays. After next week, it's gonna be the orientation week for july intake students. I have signed up to be the "buddy" to aid the students throughout the orientation week. On the 15th, I have to check my new semester's time table and might need to arrange a bit to make it more comfortable for myself. On the 17th, result will be out. I think I can check my result in the midnight 12am of 17th already. I guess my heart will beat till can fly out hahaha!! Hope for the best :D Then then then...Semester starts lo, I'm going back to the busy life where tonnes of assignments need to be done, catch up with tight datelines, need to be consistent for revision, organise Leo activities, counselling training and etc etc...Wow real busy but I will enjoy =P

Well, I'll only going out for 3days of next week. On monday, need to help chee fei's brother to do his psychology survey and help my friend on business stats because she's going to have exam next week =/ wish u luck woei..On wednesday, I'm going out with gordon and shien yin =) We will dinner together and will only movie with gordon because shien yin got piano class >.< It's okay! Haiz just feel a bit waste, when gordon and I broke up last time, and he always said was his bad >.< Don't worry, I won't blame you la, because I believe in you. I feel a bit sad when I know you'll be heading to US to continue studies, I'll miss you a lot..! No worries, we still have time to spend before you're heading to US and I might heading to australia too hmmm...On friday, I have buddy program training from 8.30am to 5.30...Walao, it'll be a long and tiring training, like working hour nia =.=

2009-06-30T20:52:00.005+08:00

Went to pyramid and celebrate sien wei's birthday from morning till around 5.30pm I guess. Today is a day I really about outing so far.

First thing first, yoke fen and I went to kim gary and checked out whether we can bring in outside foods. So, the answer is "NO". Then, I suggested to meet han liang 1st as he told me that he already reached and waited at the cinema entrance. After that, a guy came to find us, named siew fai. After that, we walked around to find a birthday cake and bought sien wei present.

Edwin and sien wei came to us in a short while after yoke fen received a call from edwin. Han liang suggested to go redbox for karaoke, lunch and celebration. This plan was on =)I was looking forward to sing k again too hahaha...We sing sing sing till 3pm wow!!! That was awesome because I really enjoy singing today than I was with sabrina, sorry to say that. Maybe it's because the songs we chose and sing are matched LOL..Most of the songs are my favourite and can sing la of course haha..

Done karaoke session, the boys decided to go for bowling..At first, I really don't want to play because I have no skill with bowling and I have negative thinking of it. I was thinking I will follow the bowl rolled into the hole =P But by looking at the boys' playing, seems fun, edwin asked me to give a try and yoke fen decided to play a game at another lane so I shared with her. So, I gave myself a try on bowling =) Whoa, I think I have addict to bowling surprisingly haha..I wished I can have a bowling session again soon..!!! 3 more weeks to go, so I can spend more time on badminton, bowling, swimming and other sports, hooray!!!! I'm happy that I learned a new sport today =)

It was a tiring day but was fun. However, I'm back to the sad world now because I get scolded by parents due to long hours out there. I know everytime I go out, come back sure get scolded, considered used to it already. But I became very sad this time, I don't know why and it makes me think that I'm lonely and I'm bad @@ I just don't want to make myself to think about that and I know I have getting back to the sickness again, hate it!!! When can I go back the original me? The happy-go-lucky, take things easy and cheerful me? Where're you??!!!!

I just can't stand with this feeling anymore..Everytime I get into this feeling, I can't stop myself from thinking negatively and wanna cry. After cry, I will still feel the same although will feel better huh..Who can save me?? Help me get rid of this feeling??!!! Help me throw away this feeling to far far away, don't ever come back to me pleaseeeee!!!!!!! I feel that I have no cure to my depression and sadness..Why have to be like this because of all the incidence happen?? I wanna be a strong girl and not the fragile one huh...

Okay, I guess I'm getting emo already, have to stop here to avoid it to become an emo post which it is suppose a happy one. Anyway, I have enjoyed a lot today, thanks to you guys. Wish you all have a good start for new semester this friday =)

2009-06-29T14:14:00.003+08:00

Holidays still bored for me as I'm still helping my dad working =.= Those figures are like can't tally huh, I have rechecked it many many times..Forget it!!

I'm supposed to go pyramid with my friends today. At first, they said go for a movie and lunch but they called me and said don't want movie already huh, make the outing bored only haiz..I look at my purse and I realised I have not much money left as I need money for tansformers movie, Sien Wei's birthday present, new clothes and my textbooks huh..I have spent 40 bucks for lunch last week, damn expensive huh..So, I decided not to go.

I need to go out with yoke fen to buy sien wei's birthday present tomorrow, hopefully not that expensive la because I'm going to bankrupt already *touch wood*. I'm going to watch transformers with gordon, and waiting for sien wei, his frens and shien yin see whethere they wanna go anot..! On thursday, julian said he wanna bring me and other friends to 1U, hopefully my parents let. I'm going out with Audrey, my long lost primary buddies haha aka my neighbour for lunch this friday before she's going back to melbourne next week =)

Due to H1N1, I can't really go out haiz..Thought to have a nice holidays with all my friends this whole month *.* I think I will start watching the 15 anime dvds (7 shows)burned by my friend last week haha..

1. Honey & Clover
2. Honey & Clover II
3. Kyouran Kazoku Nikki
4. Chobits
5. Bokura Go Ita
4. Ouran Host Club
5. Hayate No Gotoku!
6. Shakugan No Shana
7. Shakugan No Shana II

I still have Nicholas Teo's 无敌三宝妹, AOD's 仁心解码 (psychology show)and other nice show haha...I think I'm gonna be tv addict already but nah not going to watch tv show so often once new semester starts LOL..

Really need to enjoy this whole holiday before back to the stressful, hectic and busy life haha..Friends, bring me out to have more fun la!!!!

2009-06-27T18:31:00.006+08:00

Well, I have been busy working for my dad and just went out with my buddies few hours only. It was not a very enjoy one because I have curfew as in have to help my dad finish his work, so I have no choice. I feel bored and everyday have to key in all the data into the software.

Hopefully, the work that have assigned to me can be finished by tomorrow because I wanna start my planning for my club and socities' activities and really go out with my friends haha...Because of H1N1, I don't think my parents will let me go out often so need to find something to do at home. I wish I can get all my next semester units' books so I can read on it before I start semester. At least I have something to do and be prepared for next semester, I wanna do even better than this semester!! Wish me luck =) Good result=Good Future=Good Career+Good Boyfriend+Good Family=Good Life!!!

I guess I will go and find a part time job to earn more money to pay my coming semester's books which will cost me around RM600, WOW!! At the same time, I wanna go shopping!!! There're many sales everywhere and really worth to buy!!! I need new clothes and shoes =)

Also, I think I have gained weight since my holidays start LOL..I have been eating so much everyday =.=" I love to eat, that's why lo!! It's okay..I'm planning to do exercise and keep myself slim, healthy and increase my stamina =D Hmmm, I'll be going for swimming classes and evening jog..Really need exercise because sometimes too stress and I can't relax myself due to lack of exercise..So, I wanna keep myself healthy by exercising and eat healthily ~~

I was thinking to buy a new laptop but I guess I have no budget for it at the moment so I will invest a new digital camera. I start to love photography and camwhoring hahaha =P

Time for dinner!! **Hope you(bie)'ll get well soon! I know I can't help you because I can't be by your side and take care of you already but I will try my best to help you to cure your coughing okay?! =) take care!

2009-06-24T10:21:00.004+08:00

It was my birthday yesterday. I'm so happy because of everyone's birthday wishes through facebook and sms!! What I have received from my friends are 1 teddy bear (yay!!), scarf and one small secret recipe cake from my high school friend =) I love those gifts very much and I bought myself 张栋梁 Nicholas Teo's album that day, wow!!! Hahaha...I'm going to his promo with synomone this saturday..Can see him in reality LOL..

My friend burned me 15 anime dvds to ease my boredom, wohoo!! I haven't start watch them yet. Will start it when I finished helping my dad to work =/ I still have some taiwanese shows with me which I have not watch them yet too..Must watch all before start new semester because once start study, no time for me to even watch tv @@

My holidays so far okay but still kind of bored but getting to have plans on =) This whole week will be spending time to do my dad's work and once a while going to pyramid lol..I'm going to watch Transformer with julian, ee ling and jie ying tomorrow, yay!! Next, kar leng said she wanna go kitschen buyy clothes and me too. You know why?? Hahaha because sales!!! 10%, 20%, 30%, 50%, 70%!!!!!!!! Wow, most of the clothes there are really really nice and with the discounts, it's worth to purchase kekeke^^^ Hope I can buy them home =P

Well, I have nothing much to do today as usual but am going to sunway college to support him for exam as I promised him while we were still together. Even next time he has exam will still go support him no matter what. Yeah I have let go but still will be his supporter for everything he'll be doing..I believe that if we have the fate, we'll be together soon..Just bear with his parents says..So bie, I will always be there for you, remember!!! You're not alone okay? Good luck and all the best for your exam later, I'll be there to send my concern, love and cares to you ya! Below picture is for you, Gambatte!!!

2009-06-21T21:36:00.005+08:00

Trying to forget about him, but all the memories still keep on flashing around..

Can't do anything because he want to be mummy boy and just do whatever things he think will let him less trouble huh..You think life can be like that always meh?? Life is getting harder, and we need to challenge it as we grow up huh..

Alright, I'm planning to buy either MP3 or iPod. BUDGET!!! Over budget if I buy iPod, Not sure about future technology if I buy MP3 hmmm...

Next, I'm also planning to study japanese but the time is like, not really suit..LOL sickening...need plans haha...

Still a bored holidays for me now >.<

2009-06-21T00:12:00.002+08:00

I'm in the 3rd day of holidays, it seems bored and suffered for me I guess..

What I have done? Nothing, everyday sit at home, and get scolded by parents..I used to it already but ever since that day I came back late from pyramid with my friends, they kept scolding me where I can't stand it and I don't want to talk much so as to won't feel any offences and what so ever but even worse huh..Sometimes I really don't know how to live happily..

Okay, I decided to stop thinking about him and get all my depression and sadness away, thought to have a relax and clear mind, but another side of suffer coming..No one know how I feel when I am in depression..I need to keep all to myself and cope with it! I don't know where to go to release myself and happiness 24/7..Enough of sadness and depression..I feel I'm so old, weak and fragile if I keep on like that..

I WANNA BE THE CHEERFUL GIRL!!!!

What happen? Can anyone tell me why I'm facing so many hardships huh? It's okay, emo-ing at the moment because I have no freedom as in I can't go out with friends, even when I go out with them, I'm sure, 200% sure, my parents sure will nag and scold me neither come back early or late..It's all the same..I feel so fed up sometimes..I wanna sleep to avoid any arguements and stuff and sometimes I feel really tired, just need a short nap, get scold again =="

Because of I'm in this situation, most of my friends will not wanna ajak me out for anything because they know I can't go out with them, how sad it is??!! I like got a distance with them haiz..

Especially now, I feel sensitive with all those scolding and nagging because he left me, no one to share my sadness and happiness..I feel my life empty..I start to realise that he is kind of person who want you then if he will come to you, when he gets you, then he put you aside, even now we're not together, at least, as bro&sis, should care also, but he didn't ==" only I still care for him..Not appreciated though..

I feel that guys are cruel somehow, I know it's not applicable to all..They break promises and never care about us huh..As my friends said, don't trust guys fully, they might not truthful to us haiz...

2009-06-19T02:24:00.002+08:00

Well, I was really sad the night before yesterday because bie leave me. Just because of his parents said we're young and no way for u ==" We're already 19, not small kids anymore, I just don't understand what are the thoughts of his parents in their mind. Although my parents is kind of old fashion, they also didn't really reject and if I'm able to cope with my studies, then everything is fine huh.. His family is a western style of life I guess, not supposed his parents is more open?? @@ Haiz, he decided to listen to his parents and don't wanna fight for our love, so how i persuade him also no use, it's just wasting my time, energy and saliva.

Bie, I tell you I cried for you and cried everything because you don't want to take initiative to fight for our relationship. All your reasons that you told me can actually solve-able, just that you're too sturborn that don't even wanna think about it..It's so hurt you know..! Although I'm better now and said to be the old us (bro&sis), I still hope we can be together, waiting for you to become brave!!!

Alright, exam is over and it's the time to take good rest and do something that I have been thinking of to do. I'm still thinking what should I do during the whole 1 month before I start my new semester. It'll be a tough period when you're in the semester as there'll be tonnes of assignments to do and I'm active in 2clubs&societies and MUSA-Business School. It'll be a real busy time for me but I would take the challenges and enjoy it hahaha!!! Because I made myself into all those responsibilities, I become a person who can think widely, managed to handle many things at once, time management and so forth.. However, I still have a room for improvement, I still need to be more outgoing, so that I can be a better person especially I'm a business student.

1 month neither short nor long..I know I can do a lot of things throughout the whole month. My previous plans have been cancelled because of him who made the decision, so I feel so empty and don't know what to do for my holidays. I have no incentive to plan it now, as my happy feeling for all these planning gone!!! However, I will definitely go for badminton (my favourite sport), watch dramas that I have missed out so much, shopping, reading books, help my father to do work, find a part-time job in my current university, hang out with my old buddies and maybe go for japanese class. Not to forget, I still have to settle all my Leo and Monex Club activities LOL.. Leo: First Aid Class & PAWS-Cross stich; Monex: Singapore trip..Actually, my holiday not bad, just that I hoping I can do more..Ahaha, nearly forgot, SMKSU, my former high school will be having Family Day on 4th july (Saturday). So, I'll be meeting my old friends, YAY!!! But I promised to bring bie along, haiz too bad, now everything is over. Because he will not appreciate what I have planned. I feel all disappointment on all guys!!

I went to pyramid with my darlings (yi wen, faustina & yong zhen) right after our last paper last evening. We went to buy scarf for ourselves, nice and cheap though. After that, 3 of them went into a shop to buy shirts. I didn't buy any shirts because I know my parents will scold me on spending on shirts, so I hardly buy shirts without them. Next, we proceed to H2O shop to buy face scrub (faustina buying) lol..Then, I suggested to go bookshop to search for some books to read but I can't find any books that interest me and the price of those books are high. Undecisive on what to buy for reading, then we proceeded to Nandos to have our dinner, wow it was an expensive one but I enjoyed =P Hahaha, after that, Faustina went to buy breads for her friends who were crying (Life is hard!!!) and I bought bread for my family.

Last shop we visited before we went home was Speedy!! Hehehe guess what I have bought??!!! I bought 张栋梁-沉默的瞬间 new album ^^ I love his songs so much. He will be having his promo on 27th June, 4 promo one shot a day, wow!!! I'm planning to go to his 3rd promo of the day which will be held in pyramid haha, nearest to my house lol..Lets listen to his songs and memorise all before meet him up, excited!!! =)

I'm supposed to sleep lol, very sleepy now because I didn't sleep well the night before yesterday (crying+exam stress+sad+depress)!!! Alright, will have more updates sooon..Goodnight all..Wish my friends who are having test later in either morning or noon good luck!! Gambatte yo!! =)

2009-06-15T20:34:00.002+08:00

Have been going through hardship, depression and sadness throughout the weekend because of the stress on management exam paper today. I was so nervous and worried that I'm not able to answer the questions. Management is not for me as I don't really understand most of the things from the beginning. I have been married to the textbook from morning to late night but my brain seems that sesak. My friends also facing the same problem as me because we're sitting on the same boat haha. However, I was more suffered because I was having bad gastric, migraine and leg muscle cramp =/. All these sicknesses are due to lack of sleep, accumulation of didn't eat well, depressions and so forth. Thanks my bie for being supportive and cheer me up. Without his words, I don't think I can stand all the hardships because how my friends motivate me, all didn't work on me somehow.

I know I have walked out of the bad experiences I had previously but depressions and bad memories still in my brain cells >.< Sometimes, I really hate myself of being like that..Anyhow, I really wanna kill all those in my brain cells as for my own good and have promised my bie. I will appreciate what I have now, everyhthing!! I will now give all my hearts to my family, my dearest bie, friends and my education!! These people are the most important in my life. I will never let you all go and don't ever leave me alone, never, never, never!! Please bring me the fragile girl back to the strong me, I do not want to be the fragile one because it's not a good!

I still have one more paper to go for my final which is microeconomics. Well, I do like economics and I feel it better than management but I also have to work hard for it la..I really hope my first semester result is a good one as in all above distinctions but the lowest grade I can accept will be credit lo. Pray hard for everything, gambatte :)

I feel happy because I met bie today right after my exam. It was a nice meet but aiyo don't know why I was so silence although I got lots of things to talk about, sorry bie. However, I was not as nervous as I thought at least. I'm glad that I can meet him today. He shines my life with happiness. I hope we can let our parents know we're together by this week. As this sunday is Father's Day, I have an idea to take this opportunity to let both of parents know, a surprise for them =) Okay, after my last paper, I really have to make full used of the 1 month holidays to do whatever things I want and I missed and of course will accompany my bie LOL..!! Not to forget, my fellow friends' outings haha..

2009-06-12T23:50:00.002+08:00

Weeks of examination already arrived...

Well, I'm so disappointed that I couldn't finish my Bus&Econs Stats where I know how to do everything questions. What a waste?? Haiz..I can't do anything to it but just hope that when result is out, it is what I expect..However, it was a nice attempt for this subjects. I still remembered when I came to make a decision between whether to take Bus Stats (easy) or Bus&Econs Stats (hard), I was so worry that I can't cope with it as my seniors said it is a hard one..But after all, I feel that it is okay for me, too bad I'm not going to major in this area =/

I had my accounting and finance paper today. It was a fine paper. During the 10 minutes reading time, I quickly went through the whole paper and tried to recall what I have read because I don't want to miss any corners and parts for this paper..I'm aiming so high for this unit lol..Luckily, I know how to do all, somehow I forgot some points, but it's alright..

2 down and 2 more to go!! I have no mood to study today as I got migraine, leg-ache, feel like vomit...Haze made us like that >.< why every year must have haze?? =.= So, I'm planning to study tomorrow, hopefully I'm able to finish 90% of it by tomorrow..Sunday left with 10% and won't be too stress for exam on monday =/ Wish me luck lol!!!

Okay, it's time to go to bed..Tired after stress =( Need to wait and study tomorrow..

2009-06-12T21:40:00.004+08:00

1. The person who tagged you is: Richard Koh Chee Kin

2. Your relationship with him/her is: Boyfriend/girlfriend

3. Your first impression of him/her is: Cute =P

4. The most memorable moments with he/she is: At the moment not yet but soon to have!

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you is: I love you?!

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will... He is already my lover and I hope we'll be the forever one :)

7. If he/she became your lover, what should he/she improve that: improve? haha be brave and I hope much *keep in secret*

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, what will you do: No enemies for me no matter how bad the person treat me, so as him :)

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be: Backstabbed and talk bad about me!!

10. The most desired things you want to do for him/her now is: Everything that I can do for him all...

11. Your overall impression on him/her is: Quiet

12. The characteristic you love most about yourself: Friendly

13. The characteristic you hate most about yourself: Jealousy and sometimes too kind

14. The most ideal person you want to be is: Can be trusted, love and care for me :)

15. For people who care and love you, say something to them: Thanks for everyone be my side, support and keep me comfort everytime I faced hardship..

16. Pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you:
1.Sook Kuan , 2. Shien Yin , 3.Richard , 4.Ee Ling , 5.Yi Wen , 6.Jennie, 7.Qi Hong
8.Patricia, 9.Flora, 10.Sien Wei

17. Who is 6 having a relationship with? Not sure lol..

18. Is 9 a male or a female? Female

19. What is 2 studying at the moment? Bachelor (Hon) Psychology

20. Who was the last person you had a chat with? Richard (sms)

21. What kind of music does 8 like? Not sure but I guess sentimental gua..

22. Does 1 have any siblings? Yup, 4 including her if I'm not mistaken..
23. Is 4 single? Yes!

24. What is the surname of 5? Yap

25. What's the hobby of 3? Facebooking and chatting :)listening to music!

26. Do 7 and 9 get along well? They do not know each other..

27. Where is 10 studying at? Sunway University College.

28. Say something casual about your eyes: Big as many people said..

29. Have you tried developing feelings for 2? Haha friendship?!

30. Where does 9 live? USJ

31. What colour does 4 like? Pink I guess..

33. Does 2 like 7? No!

34. How did you get to know 8? During AUSMAT :)

35. Does 3 have any pets? Yup, dog :)

36. Is 7 the sexiest person in the world? Not sure!

37. Are you sexy? *No comments*

38. What am I doing now? Blogging and chatting LOL..

Tagged by Ee Ling

2009-06-03T18:30:00.003+08:00

001. Real name: Teo Shu Wen
002. Nickname(s): Shu, Wen, Mun Mun
003. Age: 19
004. Horoscope: Cancer
005. Male or Female: Female lol
006. Elementary: Tadika Ladybird
007 Middle School: SJK (C) Lick Hung
008. High School: SMK Subang Utama
009. College school: Sunway University College / Monash University
010. Hair colour: Black but planning to highlight :P
011. Long or short: Average
012. Loud or Quiet: Middle
013. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans
014. Phone or Camera: Both!!
015. Health freak: ????
016. Drink or Smoke: Drink?
017. Do you have a crush on someone: Of course
018. Eat or Drink: Both!
019. Piercings: Both!
020. Tattoos: Nope, never!
021. Social or Anti-Social: Social
022. Righty or Lefty: Right
023. First piercing: primary school time
024. First relationship: -secret-
025. First Best Friend: -many wo-
026. First Award: standard 1
027. First Kiss: ~not to mention~
028. First Pet: don't have LOL
029. First Big Vacation: Japan?!
030. First Love at First Sight: Yup hehe ^^
031. First Big Birthday: Standard 2
032. First Surgery: Choi choi choi....
033. First sport you joined: Badminton!!
034. Orange or Apple Juice: Apple!
035. Rock or Rap: Depends..
036. Country or Screamo: Hmm....
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: Maybe Backstreet boys
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: No for both lol..
039. Night or Day: Night i guess hehe..
040. Sun or Moon: Moon..
041. TV or Internet: Both!!
042. Playstation or xbox: I don't play games xD
043. Kiss or hug: Both!
044. Iguana or turtle: Nope!!
045. Spider or bee: Nope!!
046. Fall or spring: Spring
047. Limewire or iTunes: I think iTunes better!
048. Soccer or baseball: Not interested!
049. Eating: YES!!!
050. Drinking: YES!!!
051. Excitement level: Can go to maximum!!! :P
052. I'm about to: get crazy...
053. Listening to: songs
054. Plan for today: study..
055. Waiting for: finals and the 1 month holidays..
056. Energy level: Hmmmm.....
057. Thinking of someone: Kind of...
058. Want kids: Yeah but not now lol...
059. Want to get married: Yeah, not so fast lar....
060. When: When I think it's the time lor...
061. How many kids do you want: 2 kids :)
062. Any name in mind: At the moment not yet...
063. What did you want to be when you were little: Child Specialist Doctor!!
064. Careers in mind: for now, an accountant and own a business..!
065. Mellow future or wild: ????
066. Something you would never try: Drugs and clubbing...
067. When do you want to die: I don't want...
068. Lips or Eyes: Eyes...
069. Romantic or Funny: Both!!!
070. Shorter or Taller: Medium??!!
071. Protective or Caring: Both!!!
072. Romantic or Spontaneous: Both!!!
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms: Both!!
074. Sensitive or Loud: ?????
075. Hooked-up or Relationship: ?????
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant: ?????
077. Muscular or Normal: LOL...
078. Kissed a stranger: Never...
079. Broken a bone: Nope..
080. Lost glasses or contacts: Last time xD
081. Ran away from home: Nope la...
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense: No, dangerous!!!
083. Killed somebody: No..
084. Broken someone's heart: No...
085. Had your heart broken: Always..
086. Been arrested: LOL..
087. Cried when someone died: Yes of course huh...
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: Yeah..
089. Yourself: hehehehehe..what you think??
090. Miracles: Hope there are...
091. Love at first sight: ehhhhmmmm...
092. Heaven: LOL....
093. Santa Claus: CHRISTMAS!!!
094. Tooth fairy: kakakaka....
095. Kiss in the first date: no hehe..
096. Angels: LOL...
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now?: Yeah...
098. Happy with where you're in life now?: yeap
099. Do you believe in God? Yes!!
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 6 people.

People who I wanna tag are:
*Sook Kuan
*Shien Yin
*Jason
*Sien Wei
*Patricia
*Yu Liang

Exam Week!!

2009-06-01T11:20:00.002+08:00

Time passed really fast, I'm almost finish my semester 1. And now is in the month of june, which is the examination month..

I'm the original me that I always nervous and worry so much..I gotta cool down myself in order to have a fresh mind to do my revisions and exams. It is not good if you keep on stress yourself, it will scary one..

Can't believe that next thursday is my 1st day of finals. Finals will started off with Business and Economic Statistics, Principle of Accounting and Finance, Management and Microeconomics..

I will have to start the war for the next 2 weeks..All good lucks friends must come help me oh, you're so important to me :P

Alright, I have decided to let you go..You're not important to me somehow..No matter how much I love you, all your doings and attitudes are not suitable for me..Yeah, I agreed that you're a romantic guy but not high percentage over other characteristic of yours..I don't like to have a guy likes to flirt with many girls, while he is already engaged or not responsible for what he has promised..You're not worth it anymore..I hope the girls out there, please don't trust guy so much especially guy like him, seriously don't ever attempt, you'll get hurt..

I have to fight with my spirit that no more him in my heart and mind, he is just a normal friend of mine..I regret that I shouldn't accepted him at the very beginning..Thank god, that you have pull me out from this person..I have learned a lot life experiences, so I can handle my new lifestyle better than previous..I appreciate it and I will think twice before I make any decisions..

Wish me luck while doing my revision for this whole week!! Need to be concentrate!!

2009-05-30T22:32:00.005+08:00

A Walk for the Children was organised by Sunway University College, my former college which was held today..For monash student, I guess only sabrina, marsha, joeanne, kenny, 2 friends of weng howe, weng howe and me attended..I thought it will be a big crowd but it was not that, manageable..However, congratulation to the crews who make the event successful lol..Nice walk ^^ I have not been exercise about a year, of course off and on got go for short walk la..

These are just a few photos I took lol, I looked so pale and tired..My eye bags are getting worse >.< I bought a beach splash dress before I went back from SYUC hahaha..I feel that I am so lazy to study and can't really stay long with the books especially the theory parts =/ I would prefer calculation more than reading..Anyway, I still have to study, if not, how to score leh, tell me??!! Haiz...Anyone got any effective way that help me stay longer with books?? =.=

I have to bear with my finals in a month (end on 18 june) then I will have one month holidays..I have no idea on what to do during the holidays but worry about finals for now..It is very important leh, I need to score at least 60% for every unit , I aimed higher obviously..I really really hope finals is manageable to me and I can score well!!! God bless!!! I wish all my fellow friends and myself, good luck and all the best for finals!!! Best wishes all...

I will not blog much for these few weeks but if I free, I will blog :) need meditation as well hahahaha....Byeeeee =P

2009-05-26T00:24:00.003+08:00

Well, people tend to have monday blues but I went out with my coursemates (promised) to have a karaoke session to relax ourselves before back to revision..

I have been a procrastinator =P I feel lazier as soon as the exam comes..

Once we stepped into university life, we can't be lazy anymore but be consistent. It's important as it will influence our bright future LOL..

I have been trying hard to force myself stay longer to the books but somehow I can fall asleep >.< I got the heart to study but my mind gone cacat lol..

My aim is to score 70% average minimum. I might not reach but hope I can at least achieve 60% and above on average so as to eligible for student exchange to Australia campus. My chances to transfer to Clayton have been decreased as my family financial constraints, the fees over there is extremely high, the exchange rate now is way higher!!! Oh no!!! If I'm able to exchange to australia is okay already for now, at least I still can go over there..I will anyway further my master in australia =)

For now, I gotta work hard within this 2 weeks in order to score well in my finals!!!

For my 1 month holidays before starting semester 2, I will want to do:
(1) Continue work
(2) Pay a visit to Melbourne
(3) Learn Japanese Language
(4) Shoppings!!!
(5) Karaoke
(6) Cooking and Baking
(7) Read as much story books as I can
(8) Somemore to go...Can't think of any now xD (any suggestions??)

Alright, gotta go now, back to revision :P

2009-05-24T14:21:00.002+08:00

A new day for me, yet I still feel sad and down and boring..Haiz..

No matter how bad is my mood, I have to get over it, and goes on..

I managed to finish study Business and Econs Stats topic 1..

I feel so hungry now. No food at home especially I'm vegetarian today..

I'm waiting for my parents to go pasar malam and buy some deserts :P

Later, I will be going to study accounting all chapters about financial accounting..

I hope I can finish studying these as I'm going to pyramid with Sabrina tomorrow where whole afternoon I won't be studying but enjoying. This is my last time being in an enjoy moment before finals..

Okay, my parents is ready to go buy food now!! Ciaoz....

2009-05-23T21:47:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not updating for so long!! I was busy with my studies and many things had happened to me, so I was not in the mood of blogging..

Well, my love one left me out of sudden. He told me all sorts of reasons but I couldn't accepted it for almost 2 months. I made myself not to eat, sleep late, make myself busy, stress up myself. I was so suffered yet thanks to all my beloved friends who brought me up and cheer me. Without them, I guess I already "byebye" to all of you!! Till recent, I can say I'm totally put him down and whatever he do and say, already no influence to me anymore. Also, I have realise that he can go wild easily as in play with other girls (playboy). No matter how he treated me, I would say thank you to him as he did give me the love and protection when we were together! However, I hate you because you made me become a weak person (easily get hurt, sad, down and no confidence) whereby I used to be a firm person, WHY???!!!

After the 1 week study break, I was so busy with my studies as in assignments and small tests. Management assignment is the hardest among all, I pray hard to at least get a credit, of course I want a distinction or even HD lol..Other assignments should be alright. After completed the management assignment, I planned to enjoy a day out but some of my friends lazy and some back to hometown..Luckily, Sabrina-one of my university bestie ajak me to go pyramid to sing karaoke and lunch next week =)

I understand that I shouldn't waste this weekend because exam is around the corner whoch 2 weeks time. I'm now down with boredom and sadness =( What happen to me la today??!! Hate myself so much of being like that, and get fed up of myself..I wish I have an angel to rescue me and give me a very joyful and happy life from now on.

My wishes are score well in my studies, have a nice and caring boyfriend, happy life, no boredom, do and work well in my clubs I joined, work hard for my job, no sad, no stress, more smiles and so on!!! Anyone can give me all this???!! I wondered..I am not desperate to have a boyfriend, but sometimes when I feel lonely I really need someone to care for me and can have someone lean on and give me the warm protection, share all my sadness and keep me happy and smile!!!

Angel, angel, angel!!!!! Where are you??? Come to rescue me please....

2009-04-19T11:36:00.002+08:00

纯贞的爱情之花，是在革命理想中孕育的，是在和睦互励中生长的，是在共同战斗中开放的。这种扎根于志同道合的爱情之花，狂风吹不谢，利剑砍不倒，牢笼关不住，烈焰烧不毁，它经得起任何考验。

———— 章传家

~extracted from : http://www.haha365.com/yyaq/20061119210000.htm~

Hectic!!

2009-03-23T08:43:00.002+08:00

I was busy for the whole one last week. It was a hectic one and stress!!

Firstly, it is because there are many assignments to be due this week and we have to complete it as soon as possible.

I did my economics assignment's draft essay in a day because I need to show my tutor, Mr A whether mine is it correct. Luckily, what I have spent the whole night was worth. My tutor said my essay was good but somehow a bit theoritical. He asked to input some real life experience. I can't really think of anything but just adding 1 sentence in. If I would want to write more, I guess I will exceed the maximum word limit of 550 words. I hope I can score as high as I can :) God Bless!!!

Next, I have to complete my business statistics (bus stats) by today or tomorrow so that I'm able to do my homework and revision..Arghhhh, wednesday got practice test >.< Hope that what I have done for the assignment so far is correct and I left with the formation of charts for contingency tables. I really have no idea how to do, have to seek fo rhelp from my tutor :)

It was a hectic week is also because many things have happened. I couldn't believe that!!! I don't want to remind it..I will have to look forward and face everything nicely..This matter has made me lose my appetite :( , meantime, I was so sick for the whole week. At least, I have been better....

Alright, I have to restart my work again :) Bye!

New Life in studies - University!!!

2009-03-14T12:10:00.003+08:00

I'm finally a university student.

Orientation week: It can be said a fun one or bored one. However, I enjoyed it because I met a lot of new friends and my old friends xD The most enjoyable was the campus tour although I'm so familiar with the campus as I was a staff there. My group buddy is Desmond. He is from School of Engineering. He is friendly and helpful and funny :) I appreciate the Allocate+ given me the time table I wanted which is my Monday and Friday off, at least I can have more time to rest, do my homework and revision or sometimes family wanna go outstation, i can still join them instead I'm the only one stay at home LOL..

Week 1: The week started well but the lecturers already gave us all the assignments for Semester 1. Come on, it's only 1ST WEEK!!!! Stress man!!! I do satisfy with the lecturers and tutors. They are very nice and patient to us although some of them go very fast because we have to finish all the syllabus within 13 weeks before our final starts. Monash has a very high standard so we have to be consistent and time management is very important. At the same time, we have to develop our leadership as in we have to participate at least a club and to be active with it.

Week 2: This week is the Club & Socities week. I have joined Monash Leo Club, Monash Accounting Club, Monash Exchange Club and Monash Badminton Club. I host a project for Leo Club (organising chairperson). It's a tough job but I wanna challenge it and I wanna prove that I can do it :) Secondly, I went to the Networking Party held by the Accounting Club. It was a fun one. I nominate myself for the post of Assistant Activities Coordinator. I'm happy because I got 2nd highest votes for the post although I didn't get it. This was the 1st time so many people vote for me and given me applause which I didn't get any from my previous experience. Also, I'm glad that I gave a "nice, simple and sweet" (told by the MC) speech to introduce myself to the members which I never did it before especially I was not told to give a speech. It was surprisingly. I have to skip the badminton session because I need to attend the Accounting Club's event. Furthermore, Monash Exchange Club has organised a Malacca trip on the coming Saturday, cost RM90 for members and RM100 for non-members. Should I go? If I really wanna go, I need to complete my Economics assignment 1 and study Business Stats for the test on MOnday. I'll consider it first..

About study, I have already hand in my Business Stats homework. I also need to interview a manager for my Management assignment 1, find some news or articles for my Economics assignment 1 and analyse Business Stats assignment 1. My accounting lecturer aka tutor told us that we will receive our assignment 1 by email, everyone has their own question. Also, we have to use MYOB to do it..OMG!!! I only know how to use UBS larrr...Luckily, my father has the software and he can teach me at least :) Lastly, I partnered with Melvin for our accounting presentation. We have to present on the week 6. Whoa, it's a tough one but I'm sure we can do it, just have to practice more and analyse it clearly =)

I have to stop here because I need to do my work. I hope I can finish them before I start week 3..God bless me!!! CHEERS!!!

2009-02-17T10:33:00.006+08:00

Kind of boring right now at my office place. Can't believe that I'll be leaving tomorrow and back to study on next Monday.

In this 2 1/2 months working as a receptionist, I have learned a lot. I learned how to communicate with people; How to face different people with different attitude of speaking; How to reflect the reaction and all sorts of thing.

I become more mature and know what're the do's and don'ts. I want to take this opportunity here to thank my boss and colleagues who have taken good care of me and treated me well :) Thanks for everything ^^

New Honda City is out of market!!! Whoa, that's so nice!!!! I hope I can own one :)

2009-02-16T21:01:00.002+08:00

Last Friday, I went to Sunway Pyramid to meet up with my collegemates who are going to depart to Australia for studies. Apple will be going to Adelaide to study Diploma in Health Sciences while Cheng Cheng will be going to Queensland to study Bachelor of Applied Science. We had lunch together at Sakae Sushi which I have waited long time to eat there hehehe...

Next day which was Valentine Day, I went to Sunway Pyramid again to meet up with Joyce who is going to Adelaide to further study. Well, we did not have a plan where what are we going to do there. So, we just went there shop around, have lunch at Kim Gary Restaurant. The foods there are really nice :) After that, we shopped around again till we went home.

It was surprisingly that there was a romantic wedding held at the Sunway Pyramid Ice Skating. The girl who is graduated at Monash University on Jan 7 as what I read in the NST newspaper today (Page S3). Oh my god, that's so sweet! I wanted to watch that wedding ceremony but no one knows what time so I have to go home :(

Alright, Orientation will be starting on the next Monday, one whole week!!! It's finally come. I'm so excited about it as I can meet all my friends who are from my former primary, secondary and college :) and of course all new friends hahaha...I'm looking forward to meet the international students :) Gambatte!!!!

~Orientation week will be as follow:~
Monday 9am-1pm * General Introduction to Campus and Services

Tuesday 10am-5pm * School Briefing, Library orientation session & campus tour

Wednesday 8.30am-12.30pm * Study Skills Workshop

Thursday 2pm-4pm * Transitional issues & Assertive Skills Workshop

Friday 9.30am-12.30pm * MOlympic games

Hope the whole orientation week will be fun :D

2009-02-12T20:48:00.004+08:00

What is honesty?

Honesty is the human quality of communicating and acting truthfully related to truth as a value.

I don't understand why people tends to be dishonest..

Why? Why? Why?

I really hate people who like to lie..

Do you know how hurt it is???

Are you feeling happy when you dishonest to someone???

I really don't understand!!!!!!

2009-02-12T14:57:00.004+08:00

**As I don't know what to blog, then I'll just do the questions that I read it in qi hong's blog =D

1. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smoke?
= Of course it matter..

2. How about drinking?
= i'm ok with it :)

3. Do you like someone you can't have?
= yes

4. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
= yes

5. What's your favourite sport?
= badminton

6. Its Saturday night, and you're home alone... what do you do?
= watch dvd, tv or ask freinds out LOL

7. Do you like roller coasters?
= Nope, but it's fun..

8. When's the perfect time to have a bf/gf?
= especially when i'm feeling down or feel lonely haha..(i guess)

9. If you could date any celebrity, who would it be?
= Nicholas Teo (same nenek moyang, cannot!!!)

10. What are you doing this weekend?
= practice my drving and date with my friends :)

11. What is your favourite restaurant?
= Anywhere ^^

13. Ever kissed someone you weren't attracted to?
= nope, never to someone whom I attracted =D

14. Do you like anyone right now?
= hmmm yeah i think..

15. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
= inner beauty and appearance..

16. Which do you prefer, Beach or Mountains?
= beach

17. What kind of phone do you have?
= phone that is nice, good functions, can take photos, mp3 and etc..

18. Computer or Laptop?
= Laptop, portable =)

19. Jeans or Sweats?
= Jeans

20. Which year(s) has/have been the best so far?
= every year is almost the same but i did enjoy much during 2002, 2006 and 2007 :)

21. How old are you gonna be on your next birthday?
= 19

22. What should you be doing right now?
= working

23. What is your favourite TV show?
= Uncountable haha..

24. What's been your last purchase?
= i bought nothing LOL

25. Are you attracted to girls/boys that smoke?
= Nope, never..I hate smoking!!!! But of course they're still my friends :)

26. Have you ever fallen on your butt in front of a crowd of people?
= yeah on the staircase *embarrased!!

27. What do you do when you're at home?
= watch tv, listen to radio/music, talking, internet

28. What is your favourite subject?
= maths and chinese

29. What's the best thing that ever happened to you?
= have a good, nice, caring and romantic boy friend and warm family :D

Tagged by Shien Yin

2009-02-07T10:17:00.002+08:00

The Rules:

1. Take picture of yourself at this instant

2. Don't change your clothes, Don't fix your hair. Just take a picture

3. Post the picture taken with NO EDITING

4. Post your picture with the instructions

5. Tag 8 people

**Shien, this photo I didn't edit but taken by one of my colleagues

** Hair out of shape, tired eyes

I tag:
-Sook Kuan
-Yu Liang
-Jennie
-Wen Zhen
-Han Liang
-Flora
-Ee Ling
-Khai Shaun

Choices to Choose!!!

2009-02-06T12:53:00.006+08:00

I am so into music and dancing at this moment..

Should I continue piano?

Tap dance?

Ballroom Dancing?

These courses really expensive especially the dancing ones..What should I do? Any ideas my dear friends? :)

2009-02-04T13:09:00.002+08:00

Time passed fast,

Now already in the month of February.

It was like I just started working not long,

But going to stop working.

Although sometimes I feel that working is not suit me,

But I do hope I can continue working while studying,

Preferably paperwork haha.

Well, this year chinese new year is not as grand as last time;

Fireworks events become lesser;

Angpow $$$$$$ also lesser;

Because of the economic downturn LOL.

I'm going to start my university in 2 weeks time,

What I gotta prepare?

Folders for filing my notes, textbooks, notes books, foolscap papers and etc..

I'm quite excited, yet nervous;

I guess I have a slight insomnia especially after attending the course advice session;

I came to know that Monash's standard is quite high,

And I'm starting to think about whether I can score well.

I really hope and with the support from family and you,

I will score as high as I can;

I won't give up easily and will face all the challenges :)

Happy Chinese New Year - Year of Ox

2009-01-26T22:12:00.004+08:00

I'm here to wish everyone of you a Happy Chinese New Year =)

May the year of Ox brings you proseprity and happiness!!

Everyone has a good health and best of luck!!!

People who are single will have their companion;

People who are in a relationship will be sweet sweet throughout the year!!

Wishes everyone can earn lots lots $$$$$$ in the Ox year without any doubts =)

2009-01-16T09:28:00.003+08:00

I have not been blogging long time seriously..

I'm feeling my blog quite bored and dull haha..

What have I done for the period?? hmm...

Nothing much I have done actually, it's kind of undescrible LOL

Firstly, I went back to my college on the 5th day of new year..

Was selling books to my ausmat juniors..

It was the greatest deal I ever have..

I was able to sell all my books in one day..Whoa!!!

Thanks juniors, muacks =)

Secondly, I was accepted by Monash University Malaysia campus..

I'm so happy because I'm able to get into a world ranking university (sounds crazy)

I have done with the payments, I'm only have to wait for the time table out & the course advice session which is fall on the 3rd day of CNY LOL =)

However, I got a full offer from Monash University Clayton campus in Melbourne, which I really really want to go to this campus..

Unfortunately, I can't accept this offer because of my family financial problem and cannot support me to overseas..I'm not sad though because I have expected and no offence..The most important is FAMILY haha..

Even I accept it, it's too rush for me..I'm not prepared to go overseas huh..I will cry once I stepped into Aussie haha *embarassed*

Thirdly, I'm feeling stress and tension during working time especially right after Christmas till now..Anyway, I just have to be patient for few more weeks and then I'll start my univeristy study =) excited, yet nervous..

University studies is no longer as easy as primary and secondary..I really gotta work hard for my bright future..

In order to climb up to the world ladder, I'll have to change my method of study.

I will want to get as high score as I can so that I can apply the merit scholarship!!

Soon, I will be starting my career foundation (study). The duration will be around 6 to 8 years to complete as a chartered accountant..The journey is not easy I know =D

Gambatte lol, I'm sure I can do it, I gotta trust myself =)

**Hahaha, I have crabbing a lot here..I'll stop now..Bye =)

Re: Happy New Year!!! - Part 1

2009-01-04T22:17:00.007+08:00

I'm sorry that I didn't blog like almost 1 month lol because of busy working and my internet was not function well..

Before Christmas, my boss aka supervisor of the department belanja me and other colleagues dinner at Tony Romas, Sunway Pyramid! Haha that was the first time I went out with friends at night so I was a bit nervous and blur haha..One of my colleagues started to realise that I'm a new staff so he talked a lot to me and they made a lot of jokes with me LOL..! Next, I was told by them that another colleague of mine who was having dinner with us also, got feeling on me, HUH!!! I was so shock and don't know how to reflect. I have talked nonsense hehe^^ I apologize to that colleague of what I have said to him haha..

After Christmas, I'm working all alone till tomorrow because my partner went for holidays :( It was damn tiring and I got scolded everyday from early morning to finish work huh..! It's really scary man!!! Anyway, I will just have to control myself and spoke with them nicely..

Gotta go bed already!! I will continue tomorrow :) Wish you all a Happy New Year!!!

2008-12-11T15:47:00.003+08:00

Have not been blog once I have started working..It was so busy + i'm LAZY hahaha..How's the working life?? Hmm..I was not used to it on the first day because this is my first time to work and I have no experiences at all..I'm working as a receptionist in my future university..It's actually not future la because I'll be studying there on March next year :)

Everyday gotta pick up calls, help other staff for calling out, direct people to which building la, help the white man (ang-mo)&otsiders call cab and etc..It's so tiring and I start to enjoy it..Till the day before yesterday, my boss told me that I'll be transfered to admin side to do admin work but when I reach there yesterday they said I can't and I have to remain as receptionist..You know why??!! Because I'm the student in university so I can't do admin work as the information is private and confidential..SO my mood was spoilt by the bad news huh..anywhere I'm still okay and continue to do my work la and I got free gifts yesterday from don't know what magazine keke ^^

I gotta work for the whole non-stop except those few days of public holidays because this weekend the university has open day for the undergraduate and postgraduate..So, will be very very busy with the work huh..People, if you're planning to study in Monash, please do not hesitate to come for the open day. Even you don't, no harm to attend the open day right?? You can print out the schedule at www.monash.edu.my/openday

Holiday Trips!!!

2008-12-02T16:16:00.019+08:00

I went to penang on the week I finished my last paper for finals..Penang was great..I think I enjoyed eating more than travelling around :) Penang foods were nice and tastier than KL I guess hahahaha..I wished I can go penang again when I have a longer break :) The 2nd day in Penang, my family and I decided to have our dinner in a seafood restaurant. Although it's expensive but the foods, their services and drinks ichiban =D Falgs hanging on the top..

Besides that, I went to genting as well, just came back yesterday morning. OMG!!! I really have nothing to do in Genting as I'm not that interested with the theme park's game..So, we just went to have the cold weather haha..However, I took some photos in the hotel which I stayed in..Christmas atmosphere now haha!!!!

Below photos were taken in Theme Park hotel:

1st day's dinner, we ate in this restaurant located in First World hotel:

Star Walk in Genting :), you can see some singers' handprinting :)

That's all the photos haha..I gotta start working tomorrow lo..So, I'll be quite busy..Won't blog so much but I'll still :) Especially Christmas, New Year and CNY coming haha..Sure got a lot of photos I think haha ;-)

2008-11-28T17:33:00.004+08:00

I went to Penang last days. It was great but I took very little photos. Anyway, I'll post up the photos maybe tomorrow because my laptop kena virus so cannot online..So sad..!!!!

Sorry ling, I'll watch Twilight with you next week ya!!! :)

I went for jobs interview today. It was a quite not nervous one but a happy interview especially the second one. They haven't approve me but I really really hope that I can get the jobs lo. 3 months hoidays leh..I can do and learn many things and work to earn more pocket money..One of the jobs is to be a tuition teacher..The employer said I'll most probably get hire and will start work on January..hehe..Hope they are really hire me la..

Except for jobs seeking, I would want to learn Japanese Language but I think I'll postpone it because now I wanna learn things that most important 1st, I'l learn this after my 1st year finals :) Then, I wanna learn swimming..Gosh, i'm already an adult, till now I don't even know how to swim, paiseh keke ^^ My brother and sister also wanna learn, so it's depends my parents let who learn 1st..Of course I wanna be the first one to learn la LOL..Furthermore, I somehow interested to learn make-up and facial though..I asked my mum, she said yes there are people learn these during their holidays..But the thing is the course fees expensive lo..Will call up or go to the centre and ask lo ;)

Planning to have a christmas outing with high school and collegemate but I am not sure whether they all free or not :) Anyway, still in the process of planning haha..A year going to passed, I'm still very miss Japan especially my japanese friends and my foster parents huh :( I couldn't contact them :"(

Chinese New Year is fall on January next year..Count, count, count..1 1/2 month to go CNY..I love CNY because I can meet all my relatives especially my nephews and niece..BABIES :) I have this habit since I was a baby haha which is buy CNY album every year..Last year, MYFM DJs combine with Astro DJs to have their own CNY album..Whoa!!! Their vocal are so great, can say better than those sing from small :)I'll definitely buy their album this year..You all must support them also hehe :)

AUSMAT Awards Night 2008 - Part 2

2008-11-21T19:01:00.012+08:00

Ms Ruba, my favourite economics lecturer!!! At first, I got a feeling that she's not that good but after few months, good feelings with her haha.. Actually she is a very good teacher. Economics used to be not my favourite subject and not my scoring subject so I really afraid this subject..She really gives me the confidence towards economics..So now, I love econs very much besides accounting :) Thanks Ms Ruba, I appreciate everything you taught me and I'll remembered the days we were in college ;)

Ms Nithi, my Information System lecturer!!! I really a computer noob..I don't like computer stuff and I very stupid in computer games, PS games and etc..After I attended this subject, I found that IT not really that hard but gotta work very hard for it and I DID IT!!! YEAH!!! With the support of Ms Nithi, I have improved a lot and I started to love this subject :) Thanks Ms Nithi, I appreciate everything you taught me and I'll remembered the days we were in college ;)

Ms Priya, one of my EALD lecturer!! Too bad I couldn't even get a chance to take photo with Mr Jey..Alright, she's a good teacher!! I have improved my english a lots with the help from two of them..I felt hardship as my english not as good as others and I was so depressed that time..Both of them really helped me lots..Thanks Ms Nithi, I appreciate everything you taught me and I'll remembered the days we were in college ;) It was really fun keke xD

Ms Jennifer, my accounting teacher!! Erm, she's okay but many of my friends not really like her haha..Anyway she is helpful in my homework..When I have any hardship, she helps me a lot keke but she's sometimes very blur..Thanks Ms Jennifer, I appreciate everything you taught me and I'll remembered the days we were in college ;)

Ms Santhi, my applicable maths lecturer!!! She didn't come on that day..Miss her a lot..She is really a very good lecturer..I feel sorry to her because my marks really disappointed lol haha..However, I enjoyed in every her class..I remembered the method of doing maths she taught me :) Thanks Ms Santhi, I appreciate everything you taught me and I'll remembered the days we were in college ;)

AUSMAT Awards Night 2008 - Part 1

2008-11-19T21:10:00.011+08:00

Accounting was the last paper I had for my external. After exam, shien yin followed me back home and we had lunch together at my house with my mum's cook :) Then, shien and me went to saloon to have our hairstyle on..I might look weird though haha..Mum helped me make up and shien refuse to, no choice keke..!

Here our ausmat awards night started, below has some of the photos I took :)

There are a lot more photos..! Will upload them soon!! Stay tuned :)

2008-11-11T12:37:00.002+08:00

I will having maths paper tomorrow!!!

When I go through my mock paper, I can actually do it..

Don't know why when I was sitting for that paper, I can't do..!!!

Maybe because I didn't do much practices for it, in fact just 10%..

Now, I did a lot but not so so so much la, at least more than before mock lo..

I hope I can score well in this paper tomorrow..

But I have to be relax and don't tense up in the hall :)

Wish me luck!!!

APLLICTS!!!!!!!! I love you APPLICTS!!!! You must love me too ;)

2008-11-09T16:12:00.005+08:00

Time passed fast! I realised that I have already away from high school a year.

Now, it's the time my junior face for their SPM start tomorrow. Think back, when I was having SPM last year, I was so nervous and so tense. I went to many many seminars, extra classes and asked lots of questions haha..

I used to be a person who very dependent on tuition. I spent most of the time for tuition for the whole 11 years (primary+secondary). Non-stop of tuition-ing!!! It was crazy and compared to my friend who did not take any tuition, she did better than me!! Hmm..but her mum is a teacher la, so she actually don't need to go for tuition except for accounts :)

Once I stepped into college, I know that no tuition anymore and everything has to depend on my hardworking-ness LOL..Now, I have been in college almost 11 months, I have become more independent as in not to depend on tuition but myself..When you study without any help from tuition, if you succeed, the feeling is so GREAT!!!

I had learnt a lot of things since I start study in college in different areas:
(a)Friends
(b)Communication
(c)Relationship
(d)Responsible
(e)Life

I will want to share with you but let me finish my exams then I'll post it here :)

At last but not least, I would like to wish all my juniors "Good luck and all the best for your SPM" and to all my ausmat, sam's friends and myself "All the best for the remaining papers"!!!

Gosh, my tone sounds so serious haha :)

2008-11-06T21:30:00.004+08:00

First week of external exam has over. Kind of relax and not so tension already because I still left Applicable Maths and Accounting :) Both subjects have to practice more lo. Applicable maths is my poorest subjects among the 5 subjects. Hope I can do well in this exam la :) So far, the 3 subjects that I have completed was okay..

Alright, I have given conditional offers from all univeristies that I applied. So now is the time to choose which university to study. If I study in Malaysia, I'm sure go Monash. If I wanna study abroad, then I have to think which univerisity I want to go..!!! Hmmm....

The universities that I received are University of Western Australia, Monash University (Malaysia&Australia), University of Adelaide and University of South Australia. I haven't receive Curtin University's offer because I only applied one month ago. To get a conditional offer, it takes at least a month to receive LOL..

Have nothing much to blog actually..Because exam period always nothing much but to study study study lo :)

Hey, I'll have Awards Night on 18 november. Hmm..it will be held in my college's multipurpose hall..Not fun la..Why held in college not hotel wor..??!! I bought a purple gawn for myself already. Now, teacher said must wear formal, no slippers and no t-shirts. Is gawn consider formal?? Gosh..!!! I hope I can wear the gawn I bought lo..expensive man!!! :)

I wanna travel leh..!!! Any suggestions where to go for travel??

By the way, Congratulations to Barack Obama to become the new President of US!!! I know some people will reject this result, however, if he can do something good to US and the economy, then it's GOOD lol..! I believe that he can :)

Tagged by Zi Hui :)

2008-11-05T13:02:00.004+08:00

THE SELF
[01] Real name: Teo Shu Wen
[02] Nickname: mun mun, wen, teo
[03] Married: single
[04] Zodiac Sign: cancer
[05] Gender: female
[06] Age: 18
[07] High school: SMK Subang Utama
[08] College: Sunway University College
[09] Height: 153cm
[10] Weight: 50kg (i know i'm fat ;D)
[11] Do you like yourself: LOL of course
[12] Piercings: 5 ear piercings. =xx
[13] Right or left: right
[14] Are you a freak: not sure!!
[15] Hair: Black
[16] Skin: Fair
[17] Allergic: artificial colouring thingy + smelly smoke
[18] What are you doing now: Doing this tag lo..
[19] What will you do 1 hour later: watch tv then study lo..
[20] What will you do 10 years later: sleeping + study + exam

THE FAMILY
[21] Live with : parents + 1 sister + 1 brother
[22] Siblings(included you): 3
[23] Eldest: Me!!
[24] Youngest: Sister
[25] Love/hate your family: Of course LOVE la..

THE LOVE
[26] You found your another half: Yeah i guess!!
[27] If yes, who is he/she: ~don't mention~
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: -
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: almost 10months
[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): Nope
[31] Anyone woo you before(0-10000): Not sure xD, I think yes gua.
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: Nope, but he did.
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: Nothing!!
[34] Ever argue with your other half: Yes!!
[35] You with your other half since: Hmm..
[36] Reasons you love your other half: * ask me *
[38] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: Nope!!
[39] Ever think of marry he/she: I'm still young. Haven't think until that far LOL

THE FRIENDS
[40] Your first best friend: Sik Yee.
[41] Your first enemy: No one.
[42] The friend you love the most(1 only): everyone in fact!!
[43] The enemy you hate the most(1 only): No enemy how to hate??!!
[44] Your most beautiful girl friend: a lot leh..
[45] Your most handsome boy friend: a lot leh..
[46] The kind of girl you hate the most: talk bad of me and other people.
[47] The kind of boy you hate the most: bad and etc..
[48] You fall in love with your close friend before: Close friends as in??
[49] Your best friend is your ex-lover: Nope
[50] If your friend backstabbing you: Very angry but act nothing.
[51] If your friend betray you: Very angry.
[52] If your friend woo your lover: Jealous.
[53] If your friend fall in love with you: Hahaha..
[54] If you fall in love with your best friend: Ermmm..

THE STUDIES
[55] Are you a good student: Don't know. Let you to determine.
[56] You always done your homeworks/assignments: yeah but sometimes nope
[57] The teacher/tutor you love the most: ALL
[58] Always late to school/college: Last time..
[59] You love your seniors: Yeah!!
[60] Seniors who you love the most: Everyone of them.
[61] Your classmates good/bad: some good some bad.
[62] Excellent result classmate: Many!!! All are smart!!
[63] Laziest classmate: No one lazy in college haha..
[64] Smart people: alot
[65] Stupid people: No one stupid in this world!!
[66] Good looking people: alot.
[67] Ugly people: LOL no one.
[68] Funny people: alot
[69] Cute people: alot
[70] Bad people: alot
[71] Honest people: Not sure.
[72] Acting people: Not sure.
[73] You are what kind of people: softhearted..

THE PREFER
[74] Lip or eyes: eyes
[75] Hugs or kisses: both =D
[76] Shorter or taller: taller
[77] Hesitant or spontaneous: Spontaneous
[78] Nice stomach or nice arms: both please hehe..
[79] Listener or Talker: both.
[80] Romantic or rich: romantic but dun too poor. xD
[81] Good husband or good father: both.

THE FUTURE
[82] Age to get marry: 28 the earliest..
[83] Numbers of kid(s): 1 boy 1 girl
[84] Career: Accountant + Children Psychologist
[85] Salary: the more the better xD
[86] Retirement age: Hmm don't know la, still go so long..
[87] Properties value: Hmm..let see..
[88] Wishes: Happy + stressfree + Get what I want :)

I will tag :
Yu Liang
Ee Ling
Mei Wah
Shien Yin
Qi Hong

2008-11-01T20:41:00.005+08:00

Alright, after tomorrow, my final starts. I wish all the best to myself and do all my level of best!!! Time table as below:

3/11 - Information System
5/11 - Economics
6/11 - EALD
12/11 - Applicable Mathematics
18/11 - Accounting

After my EALD test, I'll most probably go genting to watch my idol - Richie Jen's concert. I hope I can go lo.. If next time he has concert also will held in Taiwan so I prefer to watch in Malaysia because I don't think I have time to travel to Taiwan :) Gambateh oh, Richie!!! Support you!! People if you wish to watch, you may go too :)

Well, I have to stop here and back to my study!!! 要做最后的冲刺了!!! I won't blog during my finals but if I have time I'll blog la.. At last but not least, I'm here to wish all my ausmat and sam's friends good luck for finals and to all my spm's friends as well :) Everyone of you included me must 加油!!! Lastly, I remember there's a leave which gives people luck de, so I found the picture from yahoo search image..I present it to myself and all of you who are going to have exam!!!

2008-10-31T14:15:00.002+08:00

Omigod, 3 more days to external!!!!

So what should I do now??!!!

Study.....Study....Study...!!!!

Very nervous though..!!!

King, where're you??

Help me!!!!

Give some opinion about how to relax myself during exam and the method of memorising??

Tagged by Grace

2008-10-31T14:04:00.002+08:00

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be? take revenge?
- I'll be pissed and upset and I won't take any revenge but to ask him why..

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- Study overseas

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
- Nobody lol

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
- Continue study, buy 3 storey bungalow for family, gives my children the best education and so on..

5. Will you u fall in love with your best friend?
- Lol maybe :)

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- Of course both..

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- Can be very very long..depends situation also xD

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- Will wait of course + will find a better one..

9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be? your gf/bf or an actress/actor?
- Actor la..

10. Will you invite for Ex bf/gf to your wedding dinner?
- Yes why not??!!

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
- Professional and have a very warm and sweet family..

12. What's your fear?
- all insects and some animals keke xD

13. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- HArd to answer, I would prefer both maybe..

14. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
- OPen my eyes and brush teeth.

15. Would you give all in a relationship?
- Yeah lol..

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- I would choose the one who loves me more and the one that I love the most lo..

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- Maybe will forgive but not forget..I can still remember till now..

18.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
- Having Relationship LOL :)

I want to tag,
- Shien Yin
- Sook Kuan

2008-10-29T11:27:00.003+08:00

5 more days to go for ausmat finals already.
Am I ready? Have I fully prepare?
Nope, not ready + not fully prepare yet!!!
Getting nervous and worry lo..
Wish to score as high as I can..

Yesterday, I get to chat with you through sms.
Yes, suppose to be happy.
Yes, after chat with you, I'm not so tension already.
However, I can feel that there's a distance between us.
Last time, we have a lot to chat and the feeling is so great.
But now, feeling nothing..
What happen to us??

2008-10-23T15:49:00.006+08:00

Yesterday, I went to MOnash University Sunway campus again to get more in detail information lo..So well, I'll most probably study first year here and will transfer to Monash Australia the year after lo. If I'm lucky enough to get a full scholarship from somewhere and able to maintain at TER90 and above, then I'll straight away go Monash Australia to study or University of Melbourne :) I wish myself luck la :) haha..

SO, MOnash University is my choice of tertiary education at the moment =D

I'll meet a lot of my friends in sunway campus lo :) Great LOL..!

2008-10-21T18:16:00.002+08:00

I got back all my ausmat internal marks already. It's okay okay but what I expect was higher lo..Mocks is really killing lol, everyone also drop because of it. Even the top student also drop!!!

Well, my TER score has increase to TER90 and above, I'm happy!! My marks huh sad la..especially my economics and eald..Economics I don't know why I made so many mistakes which I still don't understand why..??!! I know how to do lo and essay part also, ishhhh...!!!! For eald, my listening part is the most embarassing one, huh, forget about it..Essay part, just that I didn't address myself in my letter than I just got the pass part huh..what a waste mannnn..!!!!! Overall still okay la..But the very very very worse subject is my applicable maths..!! I tell you haiz...what can I do now?? The only thing that I can do now is do more exercises lo..

Just finish my moral studies finals..! I don't think I did well for it as teacher didn't teach finish and my class is the slowest huh..So I just crap la..What I have study and what I remembered just bla out lo :)

Actually nothing much to blog, no mood lo..!!! Need to start revising ad..Wish me luck oh!!! Gambateh to myself :)

2008-10-18T22:46:00.008+08:00

My brother had finised his PMR on friday. On that night itself, my whole family started to shop for new handphone because my brother wanna change his handphone lol..So these few days, we are like addict to handphones, OMG!!!

Finally, he bought the handphone that he want, so it supposes end of handphones' shopping..But now, my sister want a new handphone too haiz..Handphone addiction INCREASING lol..Anyway, I bought myself a handphone bag only :) It's nice and cute I guess and its colour is PINK!!! My favourite colour hahaha..

I don't wanna buy a new phone is because my phone is still okay and I wanna save money to learn Japanese language and buy my graduation night's attire and some accessories + new colour contact lens lo :) When I was in Carefour, I passed by an optical shop and I saw a lot brochures about contact lens so I just grabbed some lo..I took Freshlook and Freshkon for colour contact lens..

Then, I realised Ciba Vision introduced new clear contact lens which has Triple-Action Moisture (as you can see in the photo below)..It indulge your eyes in soothing three-way comfort: REFRESHES, LUBRICATES and MOISTURES :) It is daily disposable, no monthly de..It seems good..I'll check on the price and after I used all my clear lens then I might try it if it's not expensive lol..

People who wanna try this new clear lens, you may do so :)

2008-10-17T00:00:00.003+08:00

I'm not in a good mood today because my cumulative marks for accounting that's not what I expected but it's still good..

Then, come to worry about my externals which is my finals..2 more weeks to go..!! I'm suppose to be well prepared because mocka was just finished but I seems like forgot most of it..Stupid Me!! It's okay, I'll ebjoy few more days then will start back everything :)

Next, university is the BIG problem now..! Which university I should go?? Which university I can afford to go?? Any scholarships available for me?? If there is, I must get TER90 and above..Do you think I can?? I think I can but seems like can't achieve huh!!!

Don't know la, very confusing..!!! Anyone wanna watch House of Bunny with me?? Let me know oh!!! :)

2008-10-14T19:18:00.002+08:00

Huh, what a boring 2 days holidays la..!!!

I did nothing these 2 days. Suppose to study but at the end nope!!!

Nothing to blog lol..Am going to IDP tomorrow..!

Today's the last day of holidays. Gotta back to college study already :)

I will have to do my moral presentation tomorrow as well :)

2008-10-12T19:47:00.007+08:00

The two new sweater that I bought yesterday are nice and comfortable. Its brand is "toms girl". Before discount, one sweater cost RM79.90. But now, they discount as BUY ONE FREE ONE..! Which means buy two sweater cost only RM79.90. Save a lot man haha.. My old sweater's colour getting fade and not so comfortable already because it is a cheap cheap sweater. Haha..

Remember I wrote in one of the previous post, I went to old town to search for my evening gaun. I saw the below one. It's great! What do you think?? Comment please..Thanks :)

Today, I didn't go any where because my brother will be having his PMR tomorrow. Wish him good luck ba. Decided to go pyramid to my friends on the coming tuesday. As Painted Skin only the earliest time of 3.10pm, so can't watch it because traffic very jam leh even if we go back right after the movie. So either we watch The House of Bunny or we go for singing in redbox :) Lets see haha..

Give me some idea what evening gaun is great somemore!!! Thanks oh ;-)

Lick Hung's Family Day

2008-10-11T21:36:00.015+08:00

Today is my primary school's family day. My youngest sister was on duty. My mum, brother and I went after her. We bought RM20 coupon. We spent 99% of the coupons in my sister's booth. LOL..! I met many of my friends such as Jennie, Ee ling, Qi Hong, Yew Wei, Khai Shaun and Jyn Vi ( if I didn't spell wrong :D ). I didn't take photos with them la..I wore so ugly, sweat until very dirty haha..So happy I met them..! Miss them a lot weii..Qi Hong, I agreed with you!!! I MISS PRIMARY SCHOOL so MUCHHHHHH!!!! Hope our next gathering, we can meet again :) Actually, primary school life is the BEST!!!

Although all of them just a small kid, their mind of entrepreneur are far better than us. They willing to spend more to maximize their profit. Remember my moral charity that week, I seriously enjoy organizing these type of events but my group insist don't want. I was so sad. I miss my high school's family day which held last year. I really put all my effort, used my selling skills that I learned from pasar malam and etc and help my class sold stuff..The feeling really really great!!! I miss them and miss the years spending with my friends :)

I just back from Jusco, Klang. I bought a new sweater for myself and my sister. I'll post up tomorrow :) Stay tuned.

2008-10-10T22:45:00.010+08:00

I'm so bored now..! Seriously, I need at least one day shopping la..But seems like my friends all no transport lol..Some go with their own friends :( I wanna watch Painted Skin, The House of Bunny and Mamma Mia!

Alright, my dad bought a new car which is a New Proton Saga, the latest model..Hmm..Don't know is it true la, but the bank called me..Alright, which means I have to start back my driving which I have not drive for almost 10 months, PAISEH..It is suppose to be very happy to have a car but my feeling different already, don't know why..??!! But I'm still happy haha..

OKay la, it's time to go bed now!! Sleepy, ciaoz!!!

Last day of mocks!!!

2008-10-10T14:31:00.002+08:00

Today is the last day of mocks. Hmm let talk about this whole week's exams.

EALD: It was okay though. The 2nd listening part seriously hard because the speakers really slang weii..Overall okay!!

Accounting: It was okay too except for the budget question haiz..All alright la. Luckily those theories I did read it and I know how to do :) Also, my lecturer told me that my BEWA competition get a PASS not credit..Hmm..nevermind la because that day I didn't study much especially theories lol..I'm satisfied, at least I have a good practice before mocks..

Economics: Erm, I was too worry about this paper until I became CRAZY!!! Then, I study, study and study!!! Repeat, repeat and repeat..Before exam started, my friend tell me tips huh..But nevermind la, I studied for the exam ma, not for the tips..Anyway, I can do all questions lol, but yesterday I realised that I misunderstand the question and did wrong for that part, so I confirm 9 marks gone.. What a waste man!!!

Information System: Objective questions were okay, do-able!! But part b and c damn tough especially the pseudocode part..! Haiz..I think I can pass la :) Gotta work hard now!!!

Applicable Mathematics: This was the worse paper of all. I seriously don't know how to do huh..BAD!!!! Hope I can pass la..From now on, gotta practice more!! I'm not that pro ad..huh..

Well, I suppose to go pyramid with my friends de but one of them said very tired so our plan canceled..Yu Liang said will go pyramid on Tuesday, so I might going only next tuesday haha..Hope I can more shopping this few days..After that, no more shopping because gotta prepare for my external..External must do well LOL!!!

I will have holidays until tuesday officially and holiday on wednesday. Suppose have class de but applicts class cancel so I will go college in the afternoon for moral presentation :)

So for this few days, I will look for my graduation night's attire..Also, I will plan some important events that I wanna do after external..

I want SHOPPING!!! MOVIES!!!! RELAXXXXX!!! ------------ STUDY!!!!! :)

The day before Mocks

2008-10-05T12:13:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is the first day of ausmat mocks. Tomorrow (monday) is EALD, followed by Accounting, Economics, Information System and Applicable Mathematics.

Well prepared? Nope I don't. I hope I can score well in this exam especially accounting and economics la. GAMBATEH!!! Good luck to myself and to all my ausmat's friends!!!

I went to OUG to have my breakfast with family, then we proceed to old town. I look for my graduation night's gaun lo. Haha this is my first time to wear gaun and look for gaun :) After mocks, I will go for exercise to make myself more slim so that when I wear gaun wil look nicer :)

Will look for more choices of gaun and posted here. Of course I need your suggestions and idea lo hehe..

Okay la, I gotta back to study lo. I will not blog until I finish my mocks on friday. Be back on friday hahahaha..

2008-10-01T16:04:00.004+08:00

Me and my family went to have our breakfast this morning in KL. Oh my gosh!!! We thought the restaurant's foods are great but nope lol..Not nice at all huh, waste money la..Spent RM37, the foods really not nice..

After that, we went to Subang Parade to purchase my facial set because my one already finish. Hmm, as H20+ very expensive although it's very effective so mummy said don't want lo..So, I decided to use Clinique :) The price still expensive but not as expensive as H20+ lol..While waiting the sales lady to update my details to their customer records, my mum saw the make-up foundation where they gave customers a free trial de..I saw the lip stick quite nice and suit me..However, I didn't buy lo because I have not enough money in hand and after committed to buy the facial set, all money used up haha..Next time la :)

Then, we came back to home..I decided to back to study but I'm getting lazy lol..Don't why!!! Seriously, I wanna study de but haiz cannot stand already..Wanna watch tv show and relax..But MOCKSSS!!!! No way mannnn..!!! Haiz..Still forcing myself to study, hope I can gather my study mood now lo..OKay la, I wanna visit my facebook lo :)

That's my new facial set ;)

2008-09-30T20:41:00.002+08:00

I wish all my friends who celebrate Hari Raya, "Selamat Hari Raya Adilfitri"! Enjoy your time :)